Drawing Ends The Year

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I love 💕 drawing and for Christmas this year my parents surprised me with a new sketchbook and expensive Tombow Pastel Markers. A Carton of Lucky Strikes and A Zippo, some make-up and some candy. It's the end of the year and we're starting 2022. I want to focus my blog on what's working for me and how I am moving in the right direction. I got my injection this week and bought some colored pencils.

I had an amazing time with my caseworker this week and today she bought me a white chocolate mocha from a nice coffee shop at Babylon's. Then we went to Dollar Tree, note they went up .25 cents on every dollar. I bought a steno notebook and two things of instant coffee and some toilet paper.

We don't go to the center tomorrow; and it's New Years Eve tomorrow.

Christmas 🎄 Eve

​Merry Christmas 🎄 Everyone; 

This Morning I woke up at 3:45AM ❤️‍🩹; then went back to sleep till 7AM. At 9AM . . . Mrs. Cheryl showed up and I opened the present from her sister Mrs. Cookie 🍪. A picture that said “Be You” that was held in a frame.

My Dad picked me up shortly after I had taken my medication 💊 and she gave me my pill box & after we got done smoking a cigarette. 

Dad picked me up and we went to go get donuts 🍩 !! Then at 711 I got two packs of Black American Spirits. When I arrived to my parents house 🏡 the house was decorated nicely and there were presents 🎁 under the tree and we watched “Encanto”

Going to The Christmas Eve Service at 3PM…

The 🌟 appeared again from the Eastern skies. It led them until it hovered over the place of the child. They were at the right place at the right time. They entered the house and saw the child in the arms of Mary. They then opened their luggage & presented gifts: Gold, Frankincense, and Myrrh.

Matthew 2:8-11

Witnessing Wednesday

I have learned not to blame anyone for the situation I'm in; and leaning on God's help this holiday season. As my caseworker just dropped me off and we had a phone interview with my Psychiatrist. I'm waiting for my clothes and sitting here with the binder I started that was inspired from cydneymarlene.com "A GYST Binder"... Thinking about how I can make my situation a bit better and how I need to do better about self-care. I need to take a shower and I don't have any excuses. How I need to focus on myself and prepare for Friday Morning for when my Dad will be here at 10AM. I'm going over there to their house for Christmas Eve ... I have my son's presents all wrapped up and I also placed some gifts under the tree. Mrs. Cookie is here wrapping presents and I'm happy to say that I can finally relax and do some learning about topics I've been interested in.

Change does not come quickly and the best way for my life to make sense again, is too keep doing the right thing and stick to the golden rules of what I need and care for. I'm thinking about my hobbies, in January when we first got our 2nd Stimulus Check "I wanted too start a business and start JF-Designs again." Instead I bought a lovely laptop and then things went downhill. Things have started looking up again and I need and have a desire too focus on my hobbies of writing, painting, blogging, reading, and drawing.

The Lions Club Center

It’s Christmas week; and I’m counting down the days till I see my family. This week we’re not at Heritage and we’re at The Lions 🦁 Club. Yesterday my caseworker picked me up and we went to the Dollar Tree 🌲. I bought coffee and we looked around. Then we went to Sonic and she got me an orange 🍊 cream slush. I have $1.60 in my Chime account & $5 in my Venmo account. 

Then when I got home I needed to clean out my closet and vacuum. I placed the bag of stuff I got for my house 🏡 mates on the bed. Cleaned and then called my family. 

Tuesday’s Ten Before Christmas

Consecutive actions are all it equated too; last Saturday from a chicken 🐔 and waffles to steak tonight. I can tell you I have been very blessed to make it as far as I have. It's almost Christmas and our tree is up and we have gifts under the tree. Smoking House Montegos from North Carolina where my Aunt Susan lives to Smoking Yellow American Spirits that my Dad bought me.

In the next 10 days I’d like to…

1. Write a proper blog entry and finish writing Christmas 🎅 cards.

2. Apologize for my “Wicked” sleeping habits from the front of the month.

3. Recover from selfish shopping 🛍.

4. Solve crimes in the parks, and finish science experiment projects.

5. Write My Christmas Wishlist.

6. Keep a clean house 🏡 while smoking safely and drinking my coffee.

7. Watch 3 Christmas Movies all the way through.

8. Learn more about what the Government and Politics and what they are doing to me and my future.

9. Write helpful 2022 goals.

10. Help my son…

Monday's Mood

Waking up this Monday Morning to being able to drink coffee with my two awesome housemates. We went outside to smoke cigarettes at 8AM; which is what time where allowed to go outside. 

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The Weather Outside Is Getting Cold & I Don’t Want To Get Frost Bite Again. <p>

The weather is turning colder and I need and was needing my sweatshirt. I love the new blanket I bought for my bed and Christmas is coming up. I need to stay inside when it gets too cold 🥶! <p>

I’m lucky to have a house on Hightower I share with my housemates and hopefully one day I can take care of myself. When I think 🤔 of how careless and reckless I’ve been with my life I don’t have to regret it. I just need to do better the next current moment and make wise decisions. I don’t have to beat myself up about the 5 times I ran away & got hurt 😢 or stuff stolen from me. Don’t have to think negatively about the 5 times I went to jail for shoplifting. <p>

Beginning to look a lot more like Christmas.

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We decorated the house this weekend for Christmas; putting the tree up and the stair way is decorated with tensil. We are waiting for our caregiver to come and give us our medicine. Thinking about what would be good for me to do; following house rules helps. 

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This weekend we watched "The Nightmare Before Christmas" and mostly I stayed in bed all weekend. I haven\"t been very creative the last few weeks and on Friday my caseworker started talking about coping strategies. This weeked I painted my nails a pretty Christmas Tree color. Getting along well with others is important to me. Also, I want to do the best I can.

Why Do I Blog?

I haven't blogged in a while, and it's Amazing that it's December already. I haven't had anything to write lately that I think other people should read and am closing my blog JohnnaFloyd.com at the beginning of next year. My thoughts haven't really added up and they're not making much sense to me. As I struggle with ways to fill my time and becoming myself again. Blogging was the main reason I bought My Laptop and lately I haven't used it. I am finding I'm hiding my talents which God told us not to do. My main Care Giver; the one in charge of where I live asked me if I would start blogging again when I had gotten the 2nd Stimulus Check. I had a good Thanksgiving; we had a great meal. This week Dad put $50 in my Venmo and I'm still searching for the perfect Christmas gift for my little one. Yesterday I bought some Christmas Stickers and some Poinsetta Decorations. Hopefully tomorrow I'll find my son the perfect present. Thinking about what I can do to get into the Holiday Spirit. I bought 4 things of coffee and I had coffee this morning.