Wake up Wednesday; I am a seven nation army war veteran daughter and yesterday my father asked what I am doing this week. It’s LG’s birthday & we’re going to have cake today ♥️ I only recently three months ago turned 39. I know I had a good time at King 👑 Buffet but why so much TEMU? About two thirds pay
I don’t try to hurt 😞 people,
I realize today is the calm ☺️ after the storm ⛈️; I want to “smoke!” … I only have $20 & another $20,… for a rainy day. I only have six Main Street remaining. Hopefully 🤞 we get our chance to do something fun 🤩 without the blame or shame of each other. Waking up 🆙 with a slight hangover 😵 & realizing most women helping self!
Okay 👌 it’s 12:05PM & I have five 5️⃣ more Main Street & wanting to go buy more but where’s my ride or even my caseworker. Hopefully 🙏 they show up ⬆️ & can help me,… I am an A+ Journalist 11”! Then… SpringWood 🙇🏾♀️🌺🙇🏻♂️ ??? Peer Support. Then 13” Advertising and 15” Public Relations & …
Realizing that I was handed $15 & this *pack made me happy 😊… I took my blood 🩸 test & 185! Over the record 🎼🎹🎤🎧💿 & getting distracted and disabled by them. Where is my #13 Amanda Bynes CPU was that for three to eight years. I wondered about myself.
Two days later my drink 🥤 was still in my cup of the Trail Blazing 🥵 Streets! I listened to my heart ♥️ & brain 🧠 and Nario is a good worker & then;… it was my son in Single & Parenting & Mops!
I woke up 🆙 at 6:45AM & opened our fourth pack and what we need more? A custody battle and between three girls as I try to find my sisters 👯♀️! Don’t lie to me and they have no mercy or money 💴 to buy them. I have cut/ripped up my cigarettes boxes 📦 but they are Mine!
I was an Honor Student 👩🎓 and when I graduated I got a job. College can bring success,… can’t it? I tried to use a friend’s EBT & they need to fix 🔧 it! There’s 13 cigarettes 🚬 left so when their gone their gone.
At 2:45PM & I was *chilling out with my friends and *my stuff: about ‘Dodson & Dodson on the 🇱🇷 The Future Family! I consulted & contemporary consignment worked on my five 5️⃣ books 📕!
Where [R] you getting your information? Where are you getting your my mom 👩 & dad 👨🏼? Thanks 😊 I am Bitter 🩷 Bipolar & Disorder I like 👍 smoking and I am a serious senior who graduated the hard way from UNI.
Wondering 🤔 where some shit 💩 went; we took ☮️⛽️🎑! A fun 🤩 adventure through Waterfalls of Water 💦 the first year of TxWes🫀☮️! I don’t understand wanting to spend so much on every little thing from those creatures cigars of my cigarettes 🚬 of war as wanting warning ⛔️
We’re on our way to The DFW Baluha Center and in a lot of traffic; it takes about thirty minutes to get there. I get $385 normally on the first but it’s up to my Pay-E! I’ve been out of prison for six so… years! Walking around a store 🏬 with only 💵🧠 $10,… can and can’t be dangerous.
I got out of ahi,… the vehicle 🚗 & I walked in the Dollar 💵 General & … Parmesan pretzel 🥨 crisps, an Alaina Nu Strawberry 🍓 Slush Energy can, and triple x vanilla cream coffee can. 💲 costing $10.98 + $2.38 in cash 💵 then I bought 🐫 camels!
Good Morning and today I have to get my *Depakote levels checked and I have $83 in EBT 🍱 FSC! I have only $10 in *Venmo… b/c I bought 3 (cases) of Diet Pepsi/Dr. Pepper,… a bag of Jolly Ranchers & Albatross Gummy Bears & ice 🧊 pops. So far My Father has said that that’s my money 💴 & be careful with it.
He arrived at one o’clock and took me to ‘Krogers by TCU & by now my we fifteen minutes into shopping & spending $32.89 we used the self checkout together & I 🧠💵 bought this. Then we went to ‘Baylor Hospital 🏥 we couldn’t find the vehicle's and I had to get six vilest of blood 🩸.
Do I want these books and cars,… back like it was before they opened my backpack when winter comes my wonderful dad gave me ‘everything! I had insomnia for a long time. So around Feb 🍒🪭💋! I had bought five books 📕
Every time I got something I had to share;… but do I really have to? The nice way to do this is have a good and positive attitude about everything that comes and goes in life. I spent my $70 EBT card today & it will be refilled next month on the 13TH!
Though after I ate this Sushi and drank my 711 slurped,… I got sick to my stomach. First, before we went we stopped by MD clinic & I need to check my blood pressure.
I woke up 🆙 at six ‘something and got some coffee ☕️ but my coffee cup says something about being happy 😃. Dad’s been buying me cigarettes 🚬 & supplies my SS[D]I! Three 3️⃣ Jobs at McNeese.
Lovers are ‘NO Game & 16 ‘Dice R… Coming to us… in the meantime mail! Stop,… lusting after ‘My Purse & ‘Asking for stuff we don’t need. Well well,… just wait & be believing to receive “our gift ❤️
This shirt was $8.98 on TEMU,… My ‘Nanny liked it but it reminded her of her son LaCrea & BG🖤High. Most of my friends are safe & have nicknames. Tomorrow my caseworker is here for the second week then I get the second case.
Okay 👍 thanks “this chicken 🍗 and steak are ‘extremely burnt 🥵 but I had steak at ‘My Dad’s for The 4TH! It was much better but he’s getting much older and will 64yrs,… January 15th!
I’m sitting outside then it’s Windy 🌬️ then hot 🥵 then cold 🥶; I can hardly feel my body trying to take better care of myself. I talked to my Counselor and he is retiring in three weeks; got paid $385! Then right now I have $123 after all that shopping 🛍️!
I had the best mozzarella omelette and it was delicious 🤤! Yesterday turned into the worst night and I hope 🤞 it doesn’t do that again. Then we washed the Dodge ‘Durango and it’s actually a Bronco but I have gone ten 🔟 years without my Ford F-150. Thankfully I am at ‘My Parents.
Rebuilding the streets where we meet and messed up ⬆️ the streets. Nervous 😬 because I went to jail for eighteen months. I remember being eighteen and 🔏 locked 🔒 up ⬆️! I’m a college graduate 18”
This Is ‘My ♥️📕 Kid!
The Carpenters: have been working for two day, I sit here and ponder how long their assignment is! As stated by The Woman Leader; It will last two weeks. I have not paid them much attention, but rumors about them being my second cousins and even being romantically involved, is highly unpolite and pointed out by several of these house members who daily stalk my sit and my room. No one, in the entire town deserves to have their money and monetary items destroyed, stolen, or tricked by otherings.
I have been sitting in my room, for the last 45 minutes,.... Math really is funnier, and I ask them to leave my individual rights alone, by picking up a MHMR law guidebook to work on what has really been happening in the last decade, which would entirely take too long. To long for what I won't provide, all the time, really gets on my nerves. As a group of Cave Care Consensus it's not my job to provide this person with peck it with and at me cigarettes to lead to humiliation from humanitarian science.
When you account it to the sound of a hammer and nail going into the panels. A drummer has past away several months ago and I sit here praying to hold on to any amount of life I have left. I have dated two carpenters, my first when I was only fifteen, . . . and we would go into, places only we know. The sounds and hoping their careful up there and knowing that their equipment is mandatory as I learn about writing for young readers. Sometimes, it's been my accountability project and I tested that for myself and on Monday a pack of Lucky Strikes wen't missing. I bought an Omarion Rainbow Blast Vaporizer Today for $30; which are normally displayed at our local Texaco but cost $47. I bought it at Artisan Vapor's when I talked to my Peer Support Counselor from Diadem Hearts.
I went to MHMR this morning, and when Mr. Tracy got here the Carpenters we're already here. I got home at 12PM, after my appointment and the day before my birthday, I have another appointment!
This morning, we aren’t going to the center. It’s laundry day and we’re waiting for our caregiver to arrive. The lady in charge of the center, couldn’t pick us up. We’re still not allowed to have coffee at the house. Worry doesn’t solve anything but I think it comes naturally for many people. I woke up early and then went back to sleep. Worrying is tiring and makes us do stupid things, and I know I am taken care of. It might not go my way but I’m learning to make the best out of it.
Yesterday, My caseworker picked me up from the center and we went to 711. I bought 3 packs of Lucky 🍀 Strikes and a slurpy. Then we went and sat in the back of The Art Museum, in Downtown Fort Worth. We reschedule my appointment to see the counselor to next Friday.
How much time do you and I waste worrying? When I was running off, I was making things harder then they needed to be. We have had several people come and go from The Group Home, and everyone’s life is different. Instead of worrying about what I need to do. I find rest and peace from being here and relaxing.
According to Profiler (katiegrazer.com); I am ready to be Passionate About My Blogging. I need to dedicate more time and energy to creating a good blogsphere. I know I use a free blogging platform, but I can't really afford that much. Let alone I can't sit still, laughing and crying on the inside, I'm still walloping all over my bed trying to get comfortable. Probably due to the coffee I drank, my roommate made it extra strong. Seems staying in the house has me and my roommate wrestles. Though staying inside where it's warm is the best thing for everyone right now as the weather is still cold and ice is on the ground. The owner of Cave Care asked me last year if I would start blogging and being active in my writing. I was happy to and bought a nice HP laptop with the 2nd Stimulus check that came in.
Blogging takes time and persistence; I want my blog to reach 1,000 views by March. That gives me a month to triple my views, a whole lot of writing, and really putting my work out there. I have written a blog ever since I was 12 years old or known about blogging since then. I had a personal WordPress, but it was costing too much. I only make about $100 a month. Hopefully through hard work and dedication I can earn some extra income through blogging. Which has been a lifelong learning and dream of mine. I hear blogs I find on Pinterest having this cool career of blogging and hope I can make it happen myself.
My Niche
I like to write about my almost daily life and how I am doing. I have a passion for writing and art and have finished 114 Credit Hours in Public Relations and Advertising. I haven't done near the amount of research I would like; I'd like to research things that matter to you, my readers. Understand that when times of uncreatively uncertain moments face you in times of trials there is hope. In the future look forward to reading about how I am faced with my disabilities and for tips on dealing with similar life situations. I want to be at the center of my writing and I also want my readers to be informed and have a sense of who I am and what makes me who I am. Please follow me on my journey; hopefully we can share and be friends. Thank you to the one caseworker who added me, as I look forward to others adding and following me. For Valentine's Day I'm focusing the next ten days on Relationships.
Finding My Ideal Audience
Most of my caseworkers and caregivers know about my blog. Although I have several friends on my Facebook who have noticed my blog also. To get an audience I need to become a leader and strive to do my best for myself and my blog, not on days it's just convenient but every day. At this moment I don't really know what kind of readers I have to my blog.
Followers
I need to have interesting stuff to write about and really engage with my readers. I want to talk about relationships since it'll be Valentine's Day in 10 days.
Consistency And Trust
I have been acting pretty lazy and not working my hardest and I want to improve; for a long time, my readers have been hearing that without any real proof. I also responded to My Dad's question about my laptop to the answer of using my Cellphone more.
When asked by My Father, if I had used my laptop in a while. The answer was no; I have felt uninspired to write a lot lately. It hasn't been useful just to store my laptop away, I need to use it more. He said to research... Though what has been a reoccuring theme for my life has been to lounge in bed all day and play Coin Master or Doze Off to another episode of Fresh Prince.
It's the beginning of February and snow is on the ground. It started on Wednesday after my caseworker took me to go get my fingers looked at by Wound Evolution. Luckily, they are healing up and the Doctor said they should be done healing by my next visit. I was in good mental condition this time it froze and stayed home, learning my lesson from around this time last February, when I got Frost Bite on my middle and ring finger on my right hand. I have been staying home and enjoying it!
Things I'm Interested In Researching: I want to become than I am right now,
1. How to write better blog entries and more about Blogging. I want to write more, Truely I do, though when I am being hard on myself and not relying on God's word or simply feeling like I'm not uninspired it's hard for me to write.
2. How to grow closer to God and develop a strong relationship with my Creator. I am happy to say I am a Christian and depend on God for my life. I have a Journaling Bible and The Message. I have been active in my Prayer Life and God has been helping me a lot. I am glad that I am a beloved daughter of God! I have been a Christian ever since I can remember. Attending Bethel Church; but since it's still snow on the ground and going to be cold, I probably won't go this Sunday.
3. How to be a good steward of my time, my body, my mental ability and being a well-rounded person. I am happy to say that I have been doing better for the most part and things have been going well.
4. Having a career in Advertising and Public Relations. I don't want to talk about how I messed up through college and I'm hoping for Financial Stability and to get on to a good career track. I have started a small business called JF-Designs. Working on drawings, paintings, and photography, as well as writing and Advertising and Public Relations.
5. Things to do in the future; and how to move my life ahead. Everything comes with God's good timing and right now I'm doing a devotional on what to do during a season of waiting. In the future I would like to make some more money and be more active throughout every area of life.
Things I Am Looking Forward To:
1. Hopefully The Government helps us out with our Student Loans. I've been watching on YouTube about Politics and how things are working out in the economy. One of the good ones to watch is Ron Yates and another one is Stephen Gardner. I was grateful to buy this laptop, a desk, IPhone 11 with the stimulus checks that came in last year. I am hoping there is going to be another one but we're uncertain.
2. Spending quality time with my family and little one.
We had a blessed Christmas and on my phone there's this really cool clip of our Christmas. In January we celebrated My Dad's Birthday and we spent Martin Luther King Weekend along with His Birthday together as a family. I am hoping to have many more important memorable times together in the future. I moved out of their home in 2016; and have been living in a group home.
3. Going Out with My Case Workers.
My caseworkers change every week, this week I was visited by a girl in her early twenties, and we went to The Fort Worth Water Gardens, and to Target, and to $5 and Below. I bought several packs, 2, of cigarettes from 711. True Mental Health goes through a list of Case Workers and every week has been a different one. She called this morning to say that she wouldn't be meeting with me this weekend but was on call if I needed her.
4. Staying Home and Being Part of The Group.
We had to fend for ourselves after the storm started when we woke up on Thursday Morning. We had all day to do whatever we wanted. This time it meant staying warm inside and thinking about the mistake I made last year to leave during the Winter Freeze. Our Caregiver is making us a good meal and we finally got cigarettes and our medicine. I am grateful for my psychiatrist and the medicine I get to help me better manage my life. I have bipolar disorder as well as being a schizophrenic.
We have our daily chores around here and we all help out with, washing dishes and cleaning the bathroom. An old housemate moved her stuff out today. We're having a Valentine's Day party soon and this past weekend was the owner of our Group Center's Birthday.
5. Having More Meaningful Conversations and Current Events.
As of lately there hasn't been anything to talk about Not like anyone wants to hear about how I sleep at night or how I feel about the old times I used to run away. Or maybe they do? I want more meaningful times and things to talk about but I know that will include me doing my research and staying dedicated. I'm watching RuPaul's show about his Drag Races. There are good people to talk to here and the staff is really helpful.
It's Friday Night & I'm working on my blog. It's the weekend and I have plenty of time to myself to work on things I want to and enjoying the weekend.
I'm glad the Winter Storm is almost over and it's the weekend...
Hopefully In The Future I can see more readers and expand my blogsphere. I want to research some more to be well informed and to be a more put together person.
