Finally It’s Friday

​Woke up at 5:45AM… I am happy today is Friday and it’s the end of the week. We’re sitting here at the table drinking coffee and waiting for our caregiver to arrive.

 

7:51AM; took my medicine and went outside to smoke two cigarettes. This morning my roommate said I was a great writer. I’m waiting for our day care worker to arrive. 

I would like to write more, so I’m focusing on what my niche should be at first I thought I wanted to write about relationships, my career, having an online community, and living at the group home. I realize I have written a lot about my day to day life and 

My Relationships

Having mutual respect is important and I don’t want to post names. Confidentiality is important and it’s better to be safe than sorry. I am watching the news and reading blogs on my Relationships Board on Pinterest. 

My Career

I don’t have to focus on the negative and there are still steps I can take to have a good career. I went to college for Public Relations & Advertising; and want to do something with my dropping out. Hopefully there will be a way for me to still be successful. I have posted a few pages with my artwork on them. Our day care worker just texted that she wasn’t picking us up today. 

Thank You

​We just got home from the center and today is Mrs. Cheryl’s birthday! I wished her happy birthday as we got out of the car. I’m sitting in my room and just emptied out my backpack of all of my books. In the last week or so I received two Mandala coloring books from my caseworkers. 

House Meeting

​I spent the day reflecting on what I learned this morning. I am glad I had time to reflect and I did some painting but mostly stayed on my phone all day. The house owner, and owner of Cave Care is here and we’re having a meeting. The caregiver got upset with a few of us. 

I took my medicine and I just opened a box of Lucky Strikes with the activators. We have a new caregiver. I took some Advil and am ready to go to sleep. Though I’ll wait till I can smoke before I do go to sleep.

I want to go to Bethel Church ⛪️ in the morning which starts at 10:30AM. The weather has gotten nicer outside and I keep thinking of how grateful I am to be here with the other 7 members of Cave Care. 

Weekend Of Self-Care

​I am focusing on Self-Care this weekend and enjoying my hobbies and reading. I’m waiting for one more hour to go smoke and make a cup of coffee. I plan on writing some posts more in detail; as most of them have been short lately. I couldn’t fall asleep because I was reading blogs and writing in Evernote. 

I also want my blog to do a lot better and I appreciate how many views I have gotten since the beginning of the year. I have been pinning manually for hours. I have so many boards; and I just added Anger Management & Choices. I have been reading so many great blogs. 

I am reading an article on how to make money, https://www.finsavvypanda.com/how-to-make-money-on-pinterest-for-beginners/ , with Pinterest. 

Making Money 

I received $25 from my family this Monday. I make $125 in additional income during the month of January. I have yet to earn money from online. I can earn an additional $1,000. My goal is to make $300 by March 15th and I need to read up. Lots of writers speak of a slow start up and the need to stick with blogging and staying dedicated to have more readers. 

Meaningful Mornings

Spending this morning relaxing and I’m glad it’s the weekend; means I don’t have to go anywhere. I’m about to go downstairs to make me a cup of coffee and smoke a cigarette. 

I’ve been on Pinterest for a few hours and I just started going through the boards I have up. I’m updating my social media also so it is nice and organized. I’m trying to make a side income from my online presence.

Stay Warm

​It’s cold 🥶 outside and I want to stay warm. It’s lunch time and I am blessed by having three meals a day. There’s so much to be grateful for as we begin the new year. God has placed it on my heart ♥️ not to let my past ruin my future. I remember in last year’s ice storm I was not being safe and I ended up with “Frost Bite” and I’m determined too not let that happen again. 

I have a warm place to stay and I’m grateful I don’t have to be out in the cold. I gained some weight and my 👩‍⚕️ Doctor said to stay away from a lot of white bread 🍞! I also took some fiber mix with a cup of water 💦 last night. 

Reading About The Gospel

​One of the ladies that works at “Day Care” gave me a drink 🥃 of tea; when I stopped up the coke machine. We’re on our way back to the house. I smoked the second box of activated cigarettes my Father bought me. The weather is supposed to get colder. 

When I came home I folded my laundry 🧺 and made my bed. I am reading “the Explicit Gospel by Matt Chandler”! I am a Christian and have been for several years. I’m on Chapter 10; God’s plan for Redemption encompasses all creation. 

I have been following the YouTube channels on politics and what is going on. Although I don’t understand everything that is going on; I am praying that everyone stays safe & that things will work out according to God’s plan.

Towards A Thought

​I am sitting here at the dinner table waiting for our ride to “The Center”; as I put my laundry 🧺 and three tide pods and three dryer sheets upstairs in the laundry room. My parents bought me some stuff to do my laundry with. I wear mostly sweatpants and t-shirts; I love dressing comfortably and modest. 

Went out with my caseworker yesterday afternoon and had a Calzone from “Italian Pizza and Pasta”! After I came home I wasn’t feeling too good and threw up and went to bed early.

This morning I am feeling better and going with the flow as my day unfolds. 

Good Morning! 

Being Me

​Striving for everything to be perfect right now; won’t happen. For now I’m just focusing on comfort and being at peace with myself. Dad just dropped me off and I am enjoying the last of my cigarettes. The lucky 🍀 strikes my Dad bought me with the activators. I spent a lovely time with my family.

No one can tell an individual what is right for them. People can only provide empathy and respect. What might be right for one person; might be different and difficult for some others. I need to be myself and get support from others while not being annoying or a burden.

This weekend I learned it’s ok to be myself!

Three Day Weekend

​My Dad’s Birthday was yesterday… We ate at Skillet and Dinner 🥘 yesterday morning. Happy Birthday!! 

Sitting here glad to be with my son and at my parents house on a wonderful Sunday afternoon. I need to focus my blogging on myself and how I interact rather than posting stuff I don’t need to. It’s important that I am here for my family. 

Learning To Blog

​Writing is a gift and I want to start writing on my blog more. Sat outside with my housemate and smoke a lucky strike. I think of all the reasons I started writing blogs years ago without any luck 🍀 to blog for profit. I desire to become successful one day. As I find this a good outlet for my creativity and to share my stories with the world 🌎.

Today I went with my caseworker to Target after my Psychiatrist Appointment. Then we went to the park and I showed her my blog. 

Also I’m glad my FAFSA is safe till May of this year, but I know I’ll have to start doing something to make money in order to pay back the $16,795 in college tuition loan payments. 

Goal: In order to do that; I will like to make it my goal to dedicate more time to work on what is important. My goal is to build up, starting from 0. To reach more readers and build an online portfolio. My goal is to have made 1,000 views and $300 in profit by March 15th 2022. 

Wounds Do Heal

​This Morning… I woke up and waited till my caseworker arrived at 10:30AM. We went to Wound Evolution and they said my fingers had really improved. The once horribly Frost Bitten wounds have healed. Seems the more patience and getting the right help pays off. 

After my appointment we went to the 711 & I bought a medium coffee and got a bag to put the supplies the Dr. had given me. Seems they had sent me a box 📦 of bandages and iodine and they didn’t arrive to my house. 

I’m outside waiting for my caseworker and a client to finish with their appointment. Being patient and thinking about how my appointment here will be in a few days from now. As my fingers are wrapped up in gauze bandages and Pinterest has really kept my amusement. 

Day Care & Growing Up

​I would have been better off if I didn’t drop out of school? Yesterday; I had also spent too much money on lunch and a pack of cigarettes. Things are okay but they could be so much better. Things will only get better ❤️‍🩹 the more I rely on God to help me through this trying period. I haven’t been trying as hard as I could but at the same time I am laying down the foundation to making my future a good one. 

On the weekdays I go to Mrs. Cheryl’s Day Care Center. I sit here with my books 📚, pens, markers, and colored pencils. Searching for any amount of inspiration I can conjure up within myself to make myself busy. 

Relationships; things are going well and I have confidence that things are moving in the right direction. One day at a time and we are on the same page now. As we work out future plans & sticking together as a team. This year I want to focus on being a part of the team of things that are working. 

Career; there’s still hope for me to be successful as long as I work with integrity and diligence for the Lord to make life easier and not harder. I am uncertain if I ever will get to a self-fulfilling career in Advertising & Public Relations. 

Habits; there’s more to life than smoking cigarettes 🚬! There’s more to life than feeling sorry for myself that college and relationships didn’t go the way I wanted them too. I’m currently looking up habits and ways I can improve my life.

Happy New Year 🎆 2022

​Good Morning; it’s The New Year of 2022! It’s a year to give it to God, and learn to be myself and do what's right for myself. To learn to be responsible for myself & really draw closer to doing the right things for my future. To be active on my blogging & use my resources wisely in order to become a more put together individual. Through reading my blog this year; I hope to provide others with steps and topics to improve their lives as well. 

I have written a lot about wanting to do better and now is the time to accept that I have everything it takes to be able to set my life in the right direction. 

Things I Want In The New Year; 2022 Will Be A Good Year… 

📡 I am accepting the help I am offered through my Insurance & Medicaid 🏥 Medicare. To receive this help call #211; I have a good working history that provided this help. My Father is an Awesome 😎 Payee & I respect him for all he has helped me with. 

🏘 RENT in “Cave Care” is paid by Social Security. Which is going up 🛗 to $810 a month. This year will mark the sixth year of being here. I am provided a good living environment with a good group of people. 

My Side Of The Room !!!

Three healthy meals everyday is included. Half a pack of cigarettes everyday is included for an additional $20. There is responsibility to clean 🧼 and taking good care of personal hygiene is important. We’re a drug and alcohol free community and I am willing to follow the rules. 

👩‍🎓 My Main Goal; is too “Get On My Own Two Feet 👣” through perseverance and hard working ethics. 

🍀👩‍🎨 I need to learn how to manage money wisely, be able to be there for myself and my family and the people that are important in my life, learn to cook for myself and maintain a good working relationship in the “Real World 🌎” 

Goals For 2022; 

1. To Stop Making Excuses For Myself! To get good help you have to want to “Get The Help”! Everyone’s experiences and life is different. One thing I am learning and still working towards is too stop comparing my life towards others. 

2. To Develop Good Mental Health & Stay Out Of The Hospital 🏥 So Much. I feel that although I am 

3. Try to pay 💰 back UTA the $2,020.16 I owe in the loan I took out in 2016. I dropped out & I owe this money to the school. I also need to start paying back the all together loans I have used, which amount to $16,

4. Move forward in the direction of graduation 👩‍🎓! I have 114 College Credit Hours & I need 121 Hours to Graduate. I am majoring in Advertising & Public Relations. I won’t make any excuses for myself as my past is forgiven. 

5. Staying Sober & Staying Away From Sex. I have really needed to read more from the Narcotics Anonymous books my old roommate gave me and focus on how I can turn my life of how I used to be into a success. I am a recovering addict...  

6. Draw & Write and build a portfolio; and start doing more to earn money. I started a design business in 2010 when I was taking painting at Tarrant County College. I want to build an online portfolio and presence that is professional and as an entrepreneur. 

7. Stop Multitasking and really be mindful and responsible for getting stuff done. I am tired of making excuses of being lazy, and I want to see myself as a success in the next 5 to 10 years.

8. Save up for what matters; I need to realize I don't make a lot and see what I can do for further earning potential. I have so much potential but times are hard right now since rent is going up. 

9. Staying active and physically fit; I love having healthy meals and a house to stay in. 

10. Staying close to my family and helping my son out as much as possible. My son was adopted by my parents and they do an awesome job with him.