As,.. most of you know I ‘retired at 13” … Then I went to Texas County Christian. This is hopefully a good day but dad stayed up till six am because 🐈 cats were on his rooftop by skylight.
Thank you dad and today is Mother’s Day & it’s my hopeful day with my son and I am staying the night again. Waiting on him to wake up to all mothers don’t try to get your stuff stolen and I already paid that off.
Dad just dropped me off at the Rosedale house around 9AM; and as soon as I arrived, I turned in my medicine box and got a cup of coffee. We celebrated My Mother's 55TH Birthday last night; and ate at "The Taste Of Europe" and I ordered Braught Werst and mustard and a German Beer. We didn't go to Narah's last night, but we celebrated a good Birthday. I gave her a vest and a sweater, and a card. He picked me up at 11:45 AM and I left my medicine at the group home, and we had to go back and get the medicine around 2:20PM after we got lunch at Sonic; I got an Orange Cream Slush and Double Bacon Cheeseburger and large onion rings.
It felt good being with the family, despite the fact I was sick. I have been coughing since the third of this month and wheezing and when I cough I sometimes have been pissing on myself. I was asked on Thursday what I wanted to do with my life; and honestly I wish I knew. Pondering that question, while one roommate who just asked a wierd question and the rest of them are eating pancakes.
I had fun eatting at Skillet N' Grill with My Father this morning and unfortunately, they'll be out of town next weekend. They're going to Mississippi on the seventeenth and won't be back till the twenty sixth. Dad gave me four packs of Lucky Strike Cigarettes. I sheepishly asked, . . . Dad for some more money but he didn't give me any, he said last week I used all my pay and I still have $35 left over.
I had a Pleasant Saturday, thinking too myself! After Dad had left, I really started to pay attention to my own heart, again. I listened to some music and too about five educational segments. Then around 3:15PM; I walked to the corner store, TEXACO, and spent $9.06 and bought; a snack? lunch? of Muncho's, A Green Apple Gatorade, and Red Original Venom. I am in Advertising and I enjoy taking photos of what I purchase and.I needed to buy it because around that time I had gotten hungry and I didn't have a plate of lunch, although, The Chicken N' Waffles; we're great but me and my father didn't talk very much but about ten minutes. Outside, of our favorite morning ritual!
I question, myself, what direction,... since I am turning thirty-six what direction I will be heading myself into. My phone doesn't necessarily go into my laptop and the photos don't connect. In fact there's a lot of technical things I would like to know right now; but either I haven't had the time, patience, or objective too I don't know a day that I look mainly too my cell phone or laptop for stats; even though I took the course their simply aren't any. It's 7:18PM; just took my medication as the group was in a line, there's currently six residents in the house on Hightower. I need to read my MHMR handbook; as I am still questioning, why? I wrote on My "Day Dreamer" Planner, why? I wrote I have an appointment tomorrow.
My Father left me at the CAVE CARE group home around 11:30AM. Handed me four boxes of Lucky Strike Cigarettes and $40. I also received my Healthy Benefits Package! ! It's the Nineth, and I watched church, this Sunday! Woke up and it was raining, I had several cups of good coffee and even some Starbucks cold brew. With the fellowship of group home members, although, I wonder what is too much and never want to hurt myself by giving time or things they aren't needing or are ungrateful for; for instance giving a woman a pack for some money. Went to breakfast with my dear dad and he told me something. I learned this Sunday that even I am not that strong. I resist the urge to fight, but when verbally over vented has happened; I turn into a recluse and that's not at all possible because tomorrow I have to go to The Center! Three Coca-Cola's gone and three dollars gone and still, an organized backpack! Even though, I had tried several times to make
We celebrated St. Patrick's Day at the center today, we wore green sparkly shamrock hats and took photos. They handed out green beads and at the end of the day they took up the hats and the necklaces. It's the weekend and I have ten cigarettes left from what my father handed me last weekend when we went fishing. He said, he can't go this weekend, tomorrow because My Mom and Him are going to be taking pictures.
I hope he drops by and takes me too breakfast and provides me with four packs of Lucky Strikes. I have learned it is dangerous to make someone, your entire world. God, should take more of your life than anyone and my main concern shouldn't be cigarettes. Although, every weekend he's provided for me, I have been thankful. My parents drove home from little rock, Arkansas, today and I'm still waiting to hear back from them. Spring Break was this week and I had the joy of talking with my case workers. I want to just chill out this weekend and it's Friday! The weekend is a good time to relax and catch up on things.
When asked by My Father, if I had used my laptop in a while. The answer was no; I have felt uninspired to write a lot lately. It hasn't been useful just to store my laptop away, I need to use it more. He said to research... Though what has been a reoccuring theme for my life has been to lounge in bed all day and play Coin Master or Doze Off to another episode of Fresh Prince.
It's the beginning of February and snow is on the ground. It started on Wednesday after my caseworker took me to go get my fingers looked at by Wound Evolution. Luckily, they are healing up and the Doctor said they should be done healing by my next visit. I was in good mental condition this time it froze and stayed home, learning my lesson from around this time last February, when I got Frost Bite on my middle and ring finger on my right hand. I have been staying home and enjoying it!
Things I'm Interested In Researching: I want to become than I am right now,
1. How to write better blog entries and more about Blogging. I want to write more, Truely I do, though when I am being hard on myself and not relying on God's word or simply feeling like I'm not uninspired it's hard for me to write.
2. How to grow closer to God and develop a strong relationship with my Creator. I am happy to say I am a Christian and depend on God for my life. I have a Journaling Bible and The Message. I have been active in my Prayer Life and God has been helping me a lot. I am glad that I am a beloved daughter of God! I have been a Christian ever since I can remember. Attending Bethel Church; but since it's still snow on the ground and going to be cold, I probably won't go this Sunday.
3. How to be a good steward of my time, my body, my mental ability and being a well-rounded person. I am happy to say that I have been doing better for the most part and things have been going well.
4. Having a career in Advertising and Public Relations. I don't want to talk about how I messed up through college and I'm hoping for Financial Stability and to get on to a good career track. I have started a small business called JF-Designs. Working on drawings, paintings, and photography, as well as writing and Advertising and Public Relations.
5. Things to do in the future; and how to move my life ahead. Everything comes with God's good timing and right now I'm doing a devotional on what to do during a season of waiting. In the future I would like to make some more money and be more active throughout every area of life.
Things I Am Looking Forward To:
1. Hopefully The Government helps us out with our Student Loans. I've been watching on YouTube about Politics and how things are working out in the economy. One of the good ones to watch is Ron Yates and another one is Stephen Gardner. I was grateful to buy this laptop, a desk, IPhone 11 with the stimulus checks that came in last year. I am hoping there is going to be another one but we're uncertain.
2. Spending quality time with my family and little one.
We had a blessed Christmas and on my phone there's this really cool clip of our Christmas. In January we celebrated My Dad's Birthday and we spent Martin Luther King Weekend along with His Birthday together as a family. I am hoping to have many more important memorable times together in the future. I moved out of their home in 2016; and have been living in a group home.
3. Going Out with My Case Workers.
My caseworkers change every week, this week I was visited by a girl in her early twenties, and we went to The Fort Worth Water Gardens, and to Target, and to $5 and Below. I bought several packs, 2, of cigarettes from 711. True Mental Health goes through a list of Case Workers and every week has been a different one. She called this morning to say that she wouldn't be meeting with me this weekend but was on call if I needed her.
4. Staying Home and Being Part of The Group.
We had to fend for ourselves after the storm started when we woke up on Thursday Morning. We had all day to do whatever we wanted. This time it meant staying warm inside and thinking about the mistake I made last year to leave during the Winter Freeze. Our Caregiver is making us a good meal and we finally got cigarettes and our medicine. I am grateful for my psychiatrist and the medicine I get to help me better manage my life. I have bipolar disorder as well as being a schizophrenic.
We have our daily chores around here and we all help out with, washing dishes and cleaning the bathroom. An old housemate moved her stuff out today. We're having a Valentine's Day party soon and this past weekend was the owner of our Group Center's Birthday.
5. Having More Meaningful Conversations and Current Events.
As of lately there hasn't been anything to talk about Not like anyone wants to hear about how I sleep at night or how I feel about the old times I used to run away. Or maybe they do? I want more meaningful times and things to talk about but I know that will include me doing my research and staying dedicated. I'm watching RuPaul's show about his Drag Races. There are good people to talk to here and the staff is really helpful.
It's Friday Night & I'm working on my blog. It's the weekend and I have plenty of time to myself to work on things I want to and enjoying the weekend.
I'm glad the Winter Storm is almost over and it's the weekend...
Hopefully In The Future I can see more readers and expand my blogsphere. I want to research some more to be well informed and to be a more put together person.
In fact, there's several things I'm supposed to do and not to do every day. I have matured in the last 3 months, a good bit.
Saturday: was socially akward and Friday I had bought some drinks for the group. Since we should always pay kindness back with kindness. Then Sunday Morning; I went and first went to the Texaco and bought a large Starbucks Frappe, the kind that go in a glass bottle. I love street art and I placed it by Meadowbrook close to where I thought I was going into to turn and go to the house when two of our neighboors dogs had escaped and were going down the street. The brown dog bit me and when I kept walking a lady and her dog got attacked by the Big Black Dog. I am not too keen on dogs, and I am more of a cat person.
At our Mim's house earlier this year, we had a white Pitbull puppy named Ice who was only a few months old. He would whimper, bite, and our caretaker ended up letting someone in the family adopt it.
My Dad has our family dogs; ones a carrier tarrier named Chloe, and the other is a grey healer named Dixie. I just called my dad, at 3:35PM and wanted to see if I could come over for the weekend. The last time I saw my dad and Son; we went to "The Chinese Buffet" and to "Luxor's Vape Shop"... For Mother's Day.
I like my Vaporizer; and have had several Vaporizers bought for me. I have vaped ever since they came out off and on. Right now I'm vaping "Caramel Cappacino at 24mg" through a Geek Vape "Regis"; which cost about $75. In 2010 I took Journalism at UTA; now I'm working on Public Relations and Advertising.
I had a Large Slurpee today!
Looking forward to spending time with the groups and writing more and building and drawing some content for my portfolio.
What I Need to Do Every Day; From Now on After
1. Try To Bathe; and use soap.
2. Do some learning.
3. Talk to important people.
4. Help one person a day.
5. Blog and Add 5 To Pinterest.
6. Brush My Gums... I'm trying to get dentures again
7. Gather My Belongings and Sort Through Something
8. Read Devotional and Pray and Read My Bible
This was my first day to start blogging on blogspot! I'm reading this as of May 8th, 2024"! It's been about three years, since then, and I am working on editing and adding more information and getting myself back on a Routine! Starting School Back Fall 24"
