Smooth & Sharp

Thank You ❤️‍🩹 Case Worker and drank it in forty-five minutes and before my psychiatrist appointment which went well. Dad said he will probably pay me my $385, tomorrow! My little one wants a Barbie male doll so I am searching.

I’m Going

.17 Cents in my account as 🙌 wonder after I ate hormel chili and then sipping on my third cup of coffee and I bought coffee two days in a row 🍀 lucky 🍀 me. Hopeful green hair dye in my closet.

I don’t have cigarettes I have cigars but the elderly woman helped me out with two, so far. It’s 11:55AM, listening 👂🏼 to birds 🐦 chirping and I have a psychiatrist Apt at 2:45PM.

The Debated Afternoon

No don’t runaway just because you’re? I have and haven’t but … there’s a good amount of rules in life. My caseworker has brought one of these drinks everyday since I met her. Currently drinking this drink 🍹 and we can’t give the elderly lady a dollar for a soda. I even got a bag of Swedish fish. I have seven Main Street cigarettes.

Retired too my room, I spent all my money but in three or so days it will be payday!

The Morning

The bed is made, so nice 👍 and I got woken up by a caseworker this morning who handed me a small bag of bracelets. Told my dad, that right now my little sister needs prayers. June 1st she’ll become a wife and last weekend I gave dad a note 📝 & a card.

Tonight We Dance

Dance 🪩 ING ❤️‍🩹 Being ‘Alive, I love 💕 my new coffee cup ☕️ that says “Live Simply” simply drank coffee and smoked these supreme’s” all day 🎁 ‘$ went to the best Dollar 💵 Tree 🌲 May of Maybe 🤔

Saturday Seems

The purpose was to get my sweatpants from his truck but I forgot. He bought me two packs of Lucky 🍀 Strikes and chicken and waffles for breakfast. I’m reading a new book! How to Like Yourself by Bradshaw and I want to learn to draw!

Those Thursday

I spent $15 on mechanical pencils and colored pens and $5 EBT on beef jerky. Have green pen on my hand and had to throw the green pen away. Sounds like it’s raining ☔️ while I smoke this cigar.

Thought Tuesday

It’s well into the afternoon, called dad but he said he will call me back later on. I am waiting on dinner 🍽️ we had ribs and pasta Alfredo. Women Support Group tonight at 6:30PM. Got some goodies today!

A case of Dr. Pepper for less than $10! I have asthma and my doctor asked me to stop smoking. I want to use my watercolors I bought a while back at the start of the month or color a picture.

Tuesday’s Treat

My new sweatpants arrived and I got a lipstick. Opened my last pack of Lucky 🍀 Strikes. My sweatshirts are supposed to arrive sometime today. Who wears sweats during the summer? I sat outside and smoked several cigars. $50 EBT, I need someone to take me to the store.

spent $45 and have a little over $15 left. Had beef stew for lunch.

Happy Mother’s Day

I have had a good Mother’s Day and I just got a text from someone saying happy Mother’s Day. I am wheezing and don’t feel very good. The month has exactly three full weeks left. I have $50 left till the first. The little one was asleep when I left.

Mother’s Day & Murdoch

we’re watching this show right now and it’s eleven thirty. It’s Mother’s Day and I wrote my mom a note 📝 on the back of a coloring page. Dad made homemade biscuits and sausage and I ate two of them. I have two cigars left then I will open my last pack of Lucky 🍀 Strikes.

we went to Alcapco last night for Mother’s Day and I got a House Frozen Margarita and a chimichanga it was delicious.

Finally Friday

Just took a shower first thing in the morning and I opened a pack of cigarettes only have three packs left and four packs of cigars. I packed two pairs of pajamas and an outfit to go to my parents house.

my wall makes me happy all these photos came from free photos, a friend told me about it. My own little space and wish that my room mate was alright, she left over a month ago.

Thursday Till Tonight

I am sitting here with my Recovery Manager & told her about the spots on my back and under my rib cage 🩻. The fifth on Cinco De Mayo I went to see my new Doctor. Scrapbooking is a fun new hobby.

Counselor meeting this morning at 8:30AM; I bought five sweatshirts and three pairs of sweatpants and a lipstick off TEMU for $40. Going to church tonight with the lady from Peer Support.

Wearing Me Wednesday

Had pancakes for breakfast 🥞 and I have used six spoons 🥄 of coffee ☕️ just drinking it black. I just opened a pack of New Lucky Strikes. I have about $50 and we’re going shopping 🛍️ on Friday & I don’t know, maybe get mom something.

picnic 🧺 laundry 🧺 running out ❤️‍🩹😴🥰 Running out of smoke! Just opened those two packs Ezekiel’ ‘Pour Out Wrath 🥞☕️💴 about $45!

Worship Wednesday

Waiting to see if I can use a nicotine patch today and waking up is a bear 🐻 as I got woken up to take my meds. Then went to the bathroom and got a cup of coffee and finished a Lucky Strike and a Supreme. Well I asked her and she said… what is?

Tuesday’s Testimony

I 👂🏼 earned this ‘Supreme cigars & coffee and in ten minutes calling on FaceTime my best friend,… my dad. Sitting outside in the back? Why’s it called a patio? Wrote down key 🔑 definitions from Experience of Ezekiel Seven in it God takes wrath.

8AM Mommas Monday

I got woken up by the caregiver too take my meds and went to the bathroom and got three spoons 🥄 of coffee and had an egg sandwich. The beeping sound from my new 🆕 watch and the new haircut, my mom loves it. Starting the week off right.

It’s 8AM, an hour into wake and I’m sitting on my bed or should I go out and smoke 💨 some more? Three cigars and about a box of cigarettes… more packs where this came from. J said he would come today.

Sunday Self Care

It’s almost time for my dad to be here just drinking coffee and smoking a cigarette. Going to breakfast, very full and had dad’s bacon and good coffee and chicken and waffles. We’re on our way to Walmart; -$62, got a new watch and diamond earrings and two shirts and scooby pants.

waiting outside Super Cuts to get a haircut.

Turning Conservative

I spent it all?

Sat on Saturday

My house member complaint? OCPD sitting in the spiny chair… Also, PTSD! Less than a hundred till June with $50 food stamps creeping up in ten days. Sent Dad, $60 for mostly sweatpants last night. Smoked twelve cigarettes between 7AM & Burritos at Lunch time.

Im getting a haircut tomorrow instead of going fishing 🎣 last time we went fishing I only caught a dinker. For today I have just been writing down definitions to Ezekiel 1-5! Reflecting deeply on meaningful terms.

I like this haircut, what about you? I have never really had my haircut this short and think I should try it out. We’re going to breakfast tomorrow & what a luxury, good Ol Skillet 🍳 and Dinner.

Rain vs. Reigning

I went to The Dollar 💵 Tree 🌲 & Spent $52 … I only wanted to spend thirty but I went over. It rained for about two hours and now one of the workers is hanging up new blinds. The taste of orange 🍊 cream sickle with plenty of sodium only ten calories. Is this stuff good for you or not?

Reign vs. Rain

Forward Friday

Just waiting till breakfast and medicine this coffee and last drag of cigarette. I woke up sick too my stomach and have something to eat just bread 🍞 and bacon and a mixture of eggs.

She’ll be here in about an hour

First she bought me Shipley Donuts; I had two of her doughnuts 🍩 a bear 🐻 paw 🐾 and a cup of coffee. H

Trying Patience Thursday

I should work on my writing essays everyday and I am kinda disheartened because I can’t ride to church. Cigarettes & Cigars; are what seems to be the only thing too pass the time.

I don’t want to waste everything I have finished my