It’s almost lunchtime and we’re going to have Taco ðŪ Bell. Though I am never again going to ð§ & ðŦ scanning. These are some of my new desk items & I am just enjoying the day and it’s Friday.
The lunch ðĨ was ‘Great & thank you roommate. I smoked a fourth of a cigar… & I am ready for my afternoon meds & ðĪ nap time.
I took a five dollar ðĩ walk and bought these; when I walked off from my Introduction to Religion thesis I didn’t know how drastic my life would change. My mom is who is in charge but I don’t have the right to take over but in four days it’s my Birthday ð we’re going to ð King Buffet.
These girls have threatened me and my child is a blessing and it’s fun ðĪĐ talking about life. I am trying not to be a negative person but they stole two packs of my cigarettes and begged for more & pizza ð!
Hummus: Hannah-Beth,… is ‘my middle sister but there’s a strange 25 minute walk from Pecos to Lexi Mart and I spent $6.50 on that. Was I on “All That” I don’t know ðĪ·♀️ but I just took my ‘zanny at 1:38PM ‘let me rest … ð Stay off my kid”
My List of 34 Random Things
1. Write Daily; journal and take notes.
2. Once A Week Buy 1 to 3 Nice Presents For Myself.
3. Talk to my family on Facetime Tuesday's and Thursday's.
4. Do not leave the safety and retreat of the Group Home.
5. Keep up with my blogging.
6. Getting Dentures soon; it should be two weeks from now.
7. Take notice of little things in life that make a big difference.
8. Put your best foot forward...
9. Put others interest ahead of yours...
10. Stay put in one place and don't run off...
11. Keep your stuff organized and neat...
12. Know that everything comes from God apart from God we have nothing...
13. Give yourself credit and know you've come a long way...
14. Don't slip back into the old patterns and negative behaviors.
15. Use your own judgement and know everybodies lifes different.
16. If you don't get to see your family often cherish the times you do get to spend together.
18. Do what you can to make the best out of your situation.
19. Understand that you can not impose on someone else's life.
20. Try your best each day.
21. Keep in contact with your loved ones.
22. Do not settle for something that is not good for you.
23. Somethings are better left as they already are.
24. Read at least 30 minutes a day.
25. Don't leave your safety and comfort for something temporary.
26. Keep your word and work to the best of your ability.
27. Don't overspend of see too much in a negative situation.
28. Do your part and take care of your responsibilities.
29. Keep your home clean and neat and take pride in where you live.
30. Read a little of the word everyday.
31. Listen and Respect your parents...
32. Keep up with your personal hygiene.
33. Love all... Trust Few... Do Wrong To No One...
34. Keep with your age and act accordingly.
Just talked to My Dad after we ate dinner and smoked; we had chicken spaghetti and garlic bread with some really yummy sweet carrots. We get five cigarettes at night and tonight we got Blue Carnival's. My Dad and I talked about the progress I've made since I've been back to the Group Home after coming back home from Mesa Springs.
Today I bought a hot pink and black Worth backpack a new pair of Rainbow Stripped Nike's and two books. I must say that this book; Captivated by John and Stasi Eldridge is a good buy. I've gotten to chapter two and it's great so far. I also bought a book called "The Night Portrait" by Laura Morelli about WWII. My 34th Birthday is coming up and for my birthday my parents are taking me to go eat at Ninja Sushi. I spent yesterday with them and got to see my little 7 year old. We got slurpies and when I accidently spilt one I said "SHIT!" out loud and he was astonished...
There is a difference between being in Bewilderment and being in Discernment... First to be Bewildered means that your in a state of confusion. Curiosity deffinitly killed the cat; speaking of cats my Family's cat Hymnal ran away and probably got killed. I would be stating it the kindest way possible if I said that the last relationship I had was full of Bewilderment and wasn't healthy so I had to stop it. Learning to be happy being me and not depending on a substance to make me happy or the relationship with an older man looking over me to hold me to my highest regard.
Discernment comes from the core right now; as I am being contiounse of what steps to take and what to just leave in the past. Seems I write a whole hell of a lot and that helps get a lot of stuff off my chest; since talking off topic and about the wrong subject used to be one of my downfalls. There are only 5 of us here at the house on Hightower and most of the other people went to Meadowbrook. Yes I have lost some stuff along the way and have been; only this time my Birthday resolution is to stop the trending rebitual sentence of what has been happening for the last 10 years.
I have been doing good so far; one more month at this house then we move into our new house. Then my 34th Birthday is coming up... I want to have a Native American Birthday! Last year my parents took me out to eat German Food for My 33RD Birthday!
Today was laundry day and I just finished folding my laundry. Then put it in the teal bin I keep all my clothes in. I have two bins that we bought at Wal-Mart; one for clothes and another one for other misc. stuff like books and toilet paper.
Right Now I Would Like To Talk About; Where I Stand in my own opinion as myself. I am Single; and not looking for a relationship - seems I just don't do good in relationships and have a disorganized attachment style. I am giving my parents custody of my son; I tried to contact my ex to get his number and his address and I'm still waiting on a reply, so we can get the papers for the Adoption. I have a roommate; and have seven housemates all together. I have been living in a group home for the past six years; and left a total of five times. I go to a Daily Day Care Facility; and I really like it. I see MHMR two to three times a week and they have been a big help.
Dispite all the set-backs; I am looking forward to things getting better in the future. While not walking down negative roads again. Things change all the time; but I have learned I'm better here and it's better to follow God's plan. The more I follow the rules the better it gets also.