I’m going to? Today & everyday is a plan,… all day & everyday??? I am 🎃💵 responsible for my retirement and right! Bottles & 🤖 Bottoms up 🆙 an escalator and no it’s a reminder of 17” -18”! If I did or didn’t do anything about it then that’s…
I bought a pink outfit and am Pink Floyd’s only self so am I selfish? Endeavor can “Endanger my also! Thanks 😊 person 🧍♀️ personal opinion matters to individual self. Is it a matter of 💵📚 or 🧠🫀🧞♀️!
I realize today is the calm ☺️ after the storm ⛈️; I want to “smoke!” … I only have $20 & another $20,… for a rainy day. I only have six Main Street remaining. Hopefully 🤞 we get our chance to do something fun 🤩 without the blame or shame of each other. Waking up 🆙 with a slight hangover 😵 & realizing most women helping self!
Okay 👌 it’s 12:05PM & I have five 5️⃣ more Main Street & wanting to go buy more but where’s my ride or even my caseworker. Hopefully 🙏 they show up ⬆️ & can help me,… I am an A+ Journalist 11”! Then… SpringWood 🙇🏾♀️🌺🙇🏻♂️ ??? Peer Support. Then 13” Advertising and 15” Public Relations & …
I’m frustrated 😣 one more hour until I take my benzo & I can’t believe these girls ran through the Dr. Pepper’s in one day. I ate breakfast with my Father & I ate a ham & cheese 🧀 omelette. My Father gave me $60 & ‘My 2packs of Main Street were -$12… I hope 🤞 I have these for several days! I put $20 in my Pink Floyd cash box.
It was a good breakfast 🍳 & tomorrow is My EBT … then I can call 📱 & find out how much I can have. I am only thirty-nine & should not be taken advantage of by hurtful and angry 😤 older women,…
We got to wake up 🆙 like 👍 Bill 💵 Gates… My favorite 😍 thing was to/too work & school 🏫 & parties 🎈! $385 - $135 Teams of TEMU + $85 witch 🧙🏼 18 $tudents + dollar 💵 sigh 🐕 dough 🥨🫚
Then I smoked four 4️⃣ clearly cleaning 🧼 out suspicious 🤨 bitcoin accounts bitches and is 👋 his lunch in sacks 🏫💵🍟vs. 🍤! My 39TH 🍤🥠…
Who’s this tired 🥱 in the morning? I have faced two cigarettes l took My Medicine 💊! I am almost 😅 aware that someone is and was asking for too much and it’s barely 😰 payday of $385! How much do I spend on TEMU 👸🏻🅿️🚰 … $185 + s&h!
If that’s all y’all want to do is harass me then I am upset 😢 because y’all are asking me for to much. It’s been a fight for ten 🔟 years but I have survived 🚒! Hospice care and mostly 🥛🫐🍇 [gang]🏧
Then at 9:15AM; my caseworker *corrie took me to the park and I am flat broke now until next Tuesday the First. I swing life away from a nice 😊 park for myself. I learned and drove five 🫦🎒💃🏻 blocks for twenty.
Good morning ☀️ I say to myself 🩵 as I am waiting patiently for my Father 👨🏼 and I understand he grew up seventeen years in War. While I struggle and trying to understand myself. It’s hopefully 🙏 not an eighteen year old woman 👵 pregnant 🤰 in the streets under my cigarettes.
Okay 🌷⚽️🙏 no … now I am hearing a song 🎶 by Lisa’s Chicken 🐔! Working and worked on an hour & a half of work at a time with a $7 cigarette 🚬.! Gave *My House 🏠 Mom: three 3️⃣ packs.
I just got inspected by a dental 🦷 hygiene professional & I bought this yesterday and now they left me at the Group Home 🏠 & I bought two 2️⃣ black 👻 books and about $53,… grocers groceries & had fun 🤩!
That was the first time I had 👉🏼🫀&🧠 ‘surgery! Some girls ask way too many questions & some girls just look 👀 on pins of 🧷 🕵️ Pinterest to find the right answer’s 🩷🦷! I have good insights 🩷 integrity 🩷 & a good family.
Good Morning ☀️ it’s together we went shopping 🛒 at Dollar Tree 🌲… I spent ‘about $40! I am worried 😟 I won’t get ‘everything I want in life but 97; courses. I am not as I once was. I am Joan ♥️ of Ark,… just got back home & we’re smoking.
3/$15: Pepsi & Brisk & Icee Pops! How long do you predict this stuff will last? In a big Ol Trap 🪤 house 🏠 or is it a boarding home? Photos and my wishlist & I had a great 😊 birthday 🥳!
This stuff is mostly nasty 🤮 & I don’t want to leave the nasty stuff from my mouth 👄 all over the grounds as I have smoked five cigarettes 🚬 and am drinking a second cup of coffee ☕️. I have shared & I am shares. My life is about to change,…
Making that many friends and facilitating facial expressions can leave a woman 👩 damaged and where are my icons? Where are they getting sold? 9:27AM and waiting on my caseworker.
Do I want these books and cars,… back like it was before they opened my backpack when winter comes my wonderful dad gave me ‘everything! I had insomnia for a long time. So around Feb 🍒🪭💋! I had bought five books 📕
We’re already down to a quarter of a jar of coffee and I had an egg, sausage, and two egos. I am sitting at the table because my old counselor said I can’t sit on my bed and do my work and he,… okay so I had two cups of coffee one of two spoonfuls.
I received my dress, lipgloss, and accessories yesterday around 4PM,… I don’t like to nosy of people. There’s a worker here & I’m thinking of solving potential problems. I used all my EBT but now everyone is complaining. Two weeks from now it will be my Birthday.
I guess we &Clowned Around,… $8.05 & buy your own or you will get gone soon 🔜 too/to Jail! Temporarily these girls 🧒 dyed their hair and mine was blue, 🌿 herbal!
Oh,… I’m sorta confused and looking 👀 like Taylor! I’m angry 😡 at Ambrosia,… when I have seen that I never went back to 🥖? 🍇 ‘Case Studies and ‘Court Reporting. Then I went & the money 💴 🖤
Trying to protect who’s in charge and harm’s way to working out 🏋️♀️ I bought four or five 5️⃣ statement’s to buy up 🔝 we’re 👮♀️ at 711,…
So ‘Yes: He’s Twelve & December 28th; I bought a… ‘lot, so 🐣🪲 : 🪪⚠️ Don’t pull those out. I wanted another tattoo and about $20 … worth of C4!
Oh,… little one ☝️ let’s buy something substantial and have a good time then.
… “Why Does This State This!”
I’m sitting outside then it’s Windy 🌬️ then hot 🥵 then cold 🥶; I can hardly feel my body trying to take better care of myself. I talked to my Counselor and he is retiring in three weeks; got paid $385! Then right now I have $123 after all that shopping 🛍️!
I want too,… wake up and drink a cup of coffee ☕️ and today I passed out 😵 🫦 gloss. I thought 💭 about saving my money 💴 but yesterday I bought.
I was thinking 🤔 for myself I could be nicer to myself; but this roommate/ ask & I was Dr. Pham assistant from Bill 💸 Ross. I am not wanting to not get adopted by these bosses. An optical clerk and a cashier in ‘Pecos but I spent $145, 🚢!
Yesterday for five 5️⃣ days I had fun with my money 💴 $385,… rent $700. I’m/I was intending on getting my drivers license 🪪 today at ten o’clock 🕙 but couldn’t 🪓 because I needed a Birth Certificate & needing $20. Too buy my own birth,…
I was a good 👍 worker but I got my truck 🛻… ‘stolen in 2018” & daddy does not need to know I walked to Arbrook St. vs. Arkansas St. I have been in jail eighteen months. The end of that story is don’t steal! Black books were $5!
Sitting in my room, after a long day at the center. Watching some motivational and informational videos. Worry causes your problems to get worse. Your circumstances are not the center of your life. Keep going, acting, and doing what you must do because then you will find the peace of God. Housemates, asking for cigarettes, we have twenty minutes till we can go smoke. Seems that's all anyone around here cares about, even though, My Dad has given me almost nine packs of Lucky Strike Red 100s, I don't want to share them. I am on a journey to self-awareness by looking at myself from an objective point of view. Through understanding my strengths, limitations, and weaknesses. Reading through some of the old journals I have and adding to them. A lady from Diadem Hearts came to the center "Northeast Side Adult Day Care" and had me sign some paperwork for the program. Ten more minutes till we smoke, normally the residents don't talk to me unless they want a cigarette, which I have told them no several times. I don't want to be used and treated badly and they have been a nice gift from my father. My hands are cold from being outside and I smoked two cigarettes. I have generalized anxiety disorder that I have to take medication for.
It’s quite here as the housemate that was having trouble went to the hospital. There’s three of us at the house right now and we’re waiting for our caregiver to arrive in about fifteen minutes. I shared my instant coffee with the new guy and he gave me an American Spirit cigarette. I don’t know how I really feel right now, knowing I have already smoked five cigarettes since I woke up at 6:30AM and it’s almost 8AM.
That sounds like too many to smoke but that’s what I have been doing; who’s to say what’s right and wrong for an individual. I’m waiting for the call that my ride to the center is on the way and I already took my medicine and received my cigarettes. Though when I went downstairs the male worker was here asking if I took my medicine? My medication is working well and I’m glad I have my caseworker bringing me more medicine today.
The caregiver is making us some coffee and it is 8AM. I had a cup of coffee before I got into the lady in charge of the day programs car. We stopped by Family Dollar and she went to go get water. I was going to write about thriving; a word I have read on other articles but I looked the word up and it is a popular health aid. In my opinion the word thrive means about the same as flourish; to do good and move forward.
Thrive; means to grow or develop well or vigorously, to Prosper or Flourish, to gain wealth. To progress toward or realize a goal despite or because of circumstances. Right now I’m taking Passive Action; consuming, learning, and becoming inspired. I need to learn to manage unrealistic expectations I have of my social and educational relationships. I also need to take responsibility for actions and thoughts.
I am thriving by depending on God to correct my path and help me deal with the past.
I am eating my pancakes and sausage and received my cup of coffee. God, knows what we need before we do and he knows the path He has lined out for us and knows mistakes of ours before we even make them. God has been so good and I feel like I have started over and have been doing good with his help.
With a new beginning; and seeing that smoking and drinking all that I want is not too good for me. I need to be disciplined enough to make wise decisions for myself and find good ways to move forward. I just went outside and smoked two cigarettes; so I need to read two articles. Though what about the five I smoked this morning?
If everything was about timing ⏱ how would I better manage my time? The new elderly lady asked what I do at Daycare and how I pay for it. I got a little defensive and told her I didn’t know. My Amerigroup Insurance pays for it and we do whatever we want. One table is playing cards, the table I’m at with another woman brought stuff to do, and many are just sitting and complaining. The lady in charge said we should stretch our bodies.
The Group Home helps me thrive.
I moved into The Group Home about eight years ago, when my little one was two and a half, in 2016. The caregivers really provide for us. Though I have ran away five times; I am trying to do the right things in life now. I have my bed, my desk, a TV, my laptop, my books, and my clothes, and a good amount of things I have gotten as gifts or bought and collected safe in my room and I don’t have to worry too much about someone stealing from me. I have everything I need at home and don’t really understand what was going on in the past and glad it was nothing too bad that happened.
I am depending on developing my interest to help me thrive; in a career using a lot of what I learned in college.
I’m five courses away from receiving my BA in Communications; school has gotten so expensive, so I highly doubt I will go back. I studied Public Relations and Advertising; I need to research how to make a living doing what I know how to and the magazine idea was a good idea. I have started a Facebook Entrepreneur Page, which has been open for ten years.
Ideas are good but when they are neglected they don’t thrive. I need something substantial to work on and I can do independent studies on topics of things that would help JF-Designs grow and to get started with a mental health magazine. I can’t just hope and wish for my educational mind to start automatically; there’s a lot I could do but I definitely need to keep reading and researching on projects I can do by myself.
I can thrive in my relationships and see things from a better perspective.
There’s good and there’s bad people and I am sure I have written a lot about how people can impact our lives. My family life is thriving and we have spent every holiday together for almost two to eight years and almost every year; except for the times running away and drugs made me disappear.
My caseworkers and caregivers have really helped me too thrive as an individual and I am grateful. I am slowly letting go of negative relationships that I have made and learning to have a better relationship with myself.
I am depending on myself to thrive.
At the age of 34 going on 35; I am faced with the decisions of what direction I want to go in. It takes hard work and dedication to do the right things.