Wednesday We Worship

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Around 2:30PM,… I have been going to 🧠 & 🫀 ‘scanning;… so I just am sitting here waiting thinking 💭 about the things I need to do. I woke up 🆙 at 7AM 🕖 something & drank my coffee ☕️ ate breakfast and got my meds and had my blood 🩸 sugar checked ☑️! I bought two 2️⃣ bags of chips.

Okay; so my family are tree 🌲 farmers 🩷 & we work very hard for what we own. I just ate four good tacos 🌮 then my stomach hurt 😞 I usually feel like what I do isn’t good enough & I feel blamed. My roommate wants my cigar’s,… who is it?

Mostly More Monday

​I have a list I found on Pinterest one day about parenting. A few months ago, I took a course on Parenting on Coursera. I really enjoy listening to Coursera about topics I’m interested in and at the moment I am doing a course on Purpose. Everyone parents different and everyone’s parents are different.

When my son was born, my parents suggested that I continue with my Education. I was a member of Single and Parenting at Fielder and a member of MOPS. I’m proud of My Mom as she is pursuing her Masters in Communications. While taking care of my son when he’s not at school. Giving up on my goal of Graduation in 2016; was one of the worst decisions of my life. 

Not only that but I also didn’t want to stay at my parents house. Suddenly after I had gone to jail for a week because I had shoplifted from Mardel’s and Hobby Lobby; I called someone to take me to Arlington Homeless Shelter. After the fact that my dad had bailed me out that Friday. I was embarrassed and felt bad about myself to the point of suicidal ideation. I later found myself losing everything and in MillWood; where my family found Mrs. Charnel and her group home “Cave Care”!

It was Spring Break and my psychosis was hitting hard. That’s when I started noticing my schizophrenic disorder. After all I had been through and about to finish the semester off. I made the worst mistake and continued down a negative path for almost five years. I’m slowly getting my life back in order and today my caseworker took me out to go shopping for My Mom for Mother’s Day.  

Finally December

It's the last day of November and We had a Happy Thanksgiving. Our caregivers provided great food; we had turkey and ham and dressing and potatoe salad. As well as pumpkin pie and peach cobbler. I've stayed home for the most part but two weeks ago I had to go to SpringWood Hospital. The week before Thanksgiving.

 

The Holiday season is here and I'm realizing how fortunate I am to be safe here at the group home. Thinking about what to get my son and family for Christmas. I bought some Christmas Cards yesterday and two gift bags. Hopefully I find my family something really cool.

The Month Of June on MMP For MHMR

My Case Worker dropped me off at the house...
She picked me up a little after lunch and we went to The Dollar General to get pads; seems I'm going to start my period soon. Then we went to Sam Moon and I bought a necklace and some earrings. Then we went to Brauhm's and I bought a double dipped cone. I have a Doctors appointement in the morning at 10AM. It is good that I haven't spent all my money on Cigarettes this week; unlike the week before. So that I could get myself some things I wanted and needed.

I have been doing good so far; one more month at this house then we move into our new house. Then my 34th Birthday is coming up... I want to have a Native American Birthday! Last year my parents took me out to eat German Food for My 33RD Birthday!

Today was laundry day and I just finished folding my laundry. Then put it in the teal bin I keep all my clothes in. I have two bins that we bought at Wal-Mart; one for clothes and another one for other misc. stuff like books and toilet paper.

Right Now I Would Like To Talk About; Where I Stand in my own opinion as myself. I am Single; and not looking for a relationship - seems I just don't do good in relationships and have a disorganized attachment style. I am giving my parents custody of my son; I tried to contact my ex to get his number and his address and I'm still waiting on a reply, so we can get the papers for the Adoption. I have a roommate; and have seven housemates all together. I have been living in a group home for the past six years; and left a total of five times. I go to a Daily Day Care Facility; and I really like it. I see MHMR two to three times a week and they have been a big help.

Dispite all the set-backs; I am looking forward to things getting better in the future. While not walking down negative roads again. Things change all the time; but I have learned I'm better here and it's better to follow God's plan. The more I follow the rules the better it gets also.