I took a five dollar 💵 walk and bought these; when I walked off from my Introduction to Religion thesis I didn’t know how drastic my life would change. My mom is who is in charge but I don’t have the right to take over but in four days it’s my Birthday 🎉 we’re going to 👑 King Buffet.
These girls have threatened me and my child is a blessing and it’s fun 🤩 talking about life. I am trying not to be a negative person but they stole two packs of my cigarettes and begged for more & pizza 🍕!
I’m sitting on my bed and woke up at 8AM, it says my packages will arrive today. It’s Wednesday & I just smoked a cigar and drank some coffee ☕️. It’s 9:15AM, now 10AM… my caseworker came to see me.
& I am waiting for my purse, stickers, and bracelets to arrive. It said it would be delivered between 12-2PM today. I have $150, going shopping 🛒 Friday.
Today is the last day of April; and it's going to be May. May 8th is Mother's Day and I am thinking of all the times I have spent time with my family. This year has been going really good and I'm dedicated to staying at Home. I wrote in my Goals Journal; my core values for the month of April and May. I am sitting on the floor with my laptop and my books. While listening to a playlist I made on YouTube. I can't use my desk because the TV is on it. It's dark in my room and I have been focusing on what I can do to make life easier for next month. My rent is paid and my bed is made.
My Core Values: Core Values influence our behavior, personality, thoughts, attitude, and decision making according to https://thirdbliss.com/the-importance-of-values. She writes about the value behind core values.
For April I wrote Family, Patience, and Resilience.
For May I wrote Timeliness, Creativity, and Learning.
The weather is cold again, and I unrevealed my fingers from the colored band-aids. No one knew why I ran away last year. Into the bitter cold of the beginning of February. To find myself in a mental hospital a few weeks after getting Frost Bite. That's right permanent damage of the Valentine's 2021 Winter Storm. I know, "Right Now!" I am safer than I ever have been able to with God's help.
I finished reading "A Tale As Old As Time" by Liz Braswell, I think I left because of depression as I sit here watching the sad commercial of a puppy rescue AD. $19 a month; how about instead we add $1 to the vending machine or $5 for Boba Tea and $6 For reading "Cinder" by Marissa Meyer. My Dad dropped me off Last Weekend and gave me $40 and a warm hug and said "He Was Proud Of Me for doing what I'm supposed to do and staying home."
The Family's Supportive; as I have spent the Last Weekend and Romantic Valentine's Day Weekend, with my Family. My young one is doing good and we're proud of his grades. I'm on my last pack of Lucky Strikes. Luckily we still get house cigarettes and I talked to My Dad yesterday. About 45 Minutes till we smoke and I seem too do better on my medication. Even though I didn't get my injection this week.
The Group Home is Comfortable and all my work is here; I started SSDI in 2013. My Roommate is making me nervous, pacing around the floor, as I lay on my stomach with my books and laptop open. No calls from Dad, so I'm likely staying HOME due to the Weather.