Renewed Subscription

​Payday $385… I woke up to my Venmo account having the money in it. First I put $185 in my Chime account then put $50 in savings. Then I paid-$20 for Blogspot! Then I bought $45 off TEMU & now I have $85 to spend on what I need from the big gas ⛽️ station & Dollar 💵 Store.

When We Do

​I took a shower this morning before my counseling appointment and I need to do laundry 🧺. I need to update my subscription to BlogSpot & it will cost me $20. I am waiting on my caseworker & I have $11 something to buy cigarette's/cigar’s and a drink with. 

I have a 2:30PM appointment with my psychiatrist. Today I marked it as my reset checklist day. I just need to keep reminding myself that I am doing better. 

My first cigarette 🚬 in 48Hours

​Watching one of my housemates counting cash 💵 the ice 🧊 on the ground is defrosting. I just took my afternoon meds and smoked half a cigarette 🚬. I feel earlier on the ice 🧊 but glad 😀 this is almost over. I am glad I smoked. 

Making Tea; I have had two cigarettes. I am just waiting patiently & using my scented pens to write in my green notebook. 

Good or Bad: conditions

​so, we’re just waiting for this storm ⛈️ to pass & I texted JayJay. Seems I have an over the phone appointment with Sam, my psychiatrist. I’ve smoked several times and now my throat hurts & I’m trying to clean.

I will have to do much better budgeting from now on! There’s a full week till payday and I only have half a pack of cigars. We had spaghetti 🍝 tonight.

Less than a week

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Well, the carton lasted for a while but not the entire month & after next week it will be ❤️ February 2026”! Maybe 🤔 I should buy two cartons every other week. I spent most of my money 💴 and I spent all but $16 that I am saving for my ID 🪪 but my appointment isn’t till March 12th! Hopefully there’s a way to get more cash 💵! 

Smoking 🚬 by the door 🚪 and I,… so, I have been reading 📖 Ezekiel in The Bible! Also articles on Pinterest. I make another $385, next Sunday, rent is due then Dad will Venmo me my money. It was nice 😊 to go to Walmart & Target to spend my money. I got $150, for Christmas 🎄!

Wish I had this again, but now that’s gone. I have only enough cash to get my 🪪 & no more. My dad quit smoking but I hope 🤞 this bad weather goes and dad brings me cigarettes like he has been.

Bad Weather

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A picture from outside our Group Home at around this time last night the girls decided to pitch in for pizza 🍕! I have been asleep most of the day & now it’s sleeting and very cold outside. I don’t feel good,…

Staying inside,…

Get your own

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Going through a hard time, people asking for all I have just had chicken 🐔 noodle soup 🍜 & it’s raining 🌧️. Ate my snack time bagels 🥯, all gone yesterday. I paid $20 for Red Supreme 100’s at the start of the month & I have an open pack and two more packs. It’s raining 🌧️ and we’re in for a winter ❄️ storm ⛈️. 

Pizza 🍕 Night

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We went from having five people to seven people at the table. I spent $12 on two packs of Montego Red 100’s, w/o an 🪪 it’s hard to get cigarettes 🚬 but ‘Thanks! My roommate just said she would buy me a vape 💨! That’s Awesome 😎 Music 🎶!

Lifesavers

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I’m sitting on my bed, in eleven days I will be paid $385 again for February 26”. It’s supposed to rain 🌧️ on Friday and Saturday this week. The little one went back to school today & I’ve been busy all day. Do you like lifesavers? I just received this snack bag of share size gummy lifesavers. Group Home 🏠 Argument about taking showers 🚿, I did yesterday.

This was a couple of days ago, food stamps don’t come in until the 13th of February, the day before Valentines Day I have plenty of food in my closet. 

Took out the trash 🚮 and all the girls are sitting at the table. I only have one Dr. Pepper & a few Big Red. 

The Day of ANSA

​Waiting for my Recovery ❤️‍🩹 Manager & I just drank a Big Red & smoked a cigarette. I woke up to half a pack and now I have half of half a pack. There’s eleven days left in this month & I have $18 in cash and $11 on Chime. I really should save more.

We made it to the appointment on time where the lady asked me a series of questions. I answered them the best I could. Now I’m home at the group home and just smoked a cigarettes.

Martin Luther King 👑 Day

​Woke up at 9:20AM on the couch 🛋️ with my jacket as my pillow and dad’s army blanket. It’s 11:25AM & we’re watching “Cheaper By The Dozen”! Dad made pancakes for everyone and I had two cups of coffee and two glazed donuts. I have three cigarettes 🚬 left in this pack and two packs left. The little one wouldn’t stop saying the F* word & 

Stay Again

​Sitting here on the couch 🛋️ & I was able to sleep 😴 last night. I woke up at 8:45AM & the little one woke up at 12:15AM. They wanted me to stay another night and go home tomorrow on Martin Luther King Day! Dad just left to go to the store & mom is in the kitchen cooking French Toast. 

Exactly Two Weeks ❤️

​I was able to see my whole family today! I was blessed that I was able to see my little sisters and that we had a special meal. In exactly fourteen days it will be February First, mom ❤️ let’s just enjoy the time right now. Electronics and sleepover,…

I took my meds,… on Tuesday I have a ANSA appointment & I am aware that this month I spent too much money 💴 and