Happy New Year 🎆 2026”

​I didn’t stay up & went to bed 🛌 about eight thirty 🕣 PM… woke up about seven forty five AM. Smoking my third cigarette and drinking a Coke it feels nice outside. Took a shower 🚿 & got dressed in this green outfit. Just put my clothes in the washer. A good morning 😃 had coffee.

I am listening 👂🏼 to an audiobook called “There Must Be a Better Way” & just sparked a cigarette 🚬! It’s on Libby and good stuff and due in eighteen days. Most of my stuff should be here by the twelfth.

Gave Darcy a can, and ordered a photo album ❤️ for $20,… I have one pack left! The Start of the year and I need to fold my laundry 🧺. Threw my burrito 🌯 away.

Alex to Alex to AWOL; about a girl's paycheck...

I 🧠❤️ Journaling

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These are my $5 favorite 😍 Dollar 💵 Tree 🌳 Journals of 2025” ❤️!! These are ‘old but I bought two last month, it’s the last day and tomorrow is payday but I already got paid & spent a good bit…

I have four half way done journals & I am trying to write & put the rest of the photos in them. I just took my ‘Xanax & someone gave me a KitKat bar…

Pay Day…

​I got paid twelve hours ago $385 and went shopping 🛍️ on TEMU when I woke up. I didn’t get my full shopping list done but I spent $198 & they will come with my packages 📦… ordered Christmas 🎄 photos for $12! I was already paid when I woke up but now I have $175!

The $100 !!!

​Smoking 🚬 the last ones in the pack and waiting on my caseworker. My family gave me $150 & it’s burning 🔥 a whole in my pocket and I need some clothes. I have a hundred dollars 💵 and want to go to Walmart and spend it. Caseworker will be here in an hour and we’re going to shop.

I need two sweatsuits ❤️ hopefully on sale especially in black & gray. I want some scented 🖊️ pens. Hopefully 🙏 I can make this money stretch and buy great 😊 deals. Caseworker will be here in thirty minutes. I just opened a pack of cigarettes 🚬, my fourth pack. I missed an appointment.

Need drinks; 1:30PM & I’m back at the Group Home 🏠 the caseworker ❤️Rachael was very helpful but there won’t be another time till next week and I had “Burger King” chicken sandwich for lunch. I only have $40 left in cash. 

The Wishful Day

​Dad said, “It doesn’t matter if I take a shower or not.” I know he’s going to take me to get a haircut. Woke up around eight in the morning & took my meds and I have a PCP appointment tomorrow. The little one and I cuddled all night under the Army blanket and he is sleeping 😴.

Dad let me have two beers 🍻 last night & we went to “Olive Garden” instead of “Cheese Factory” because it was too crowded. Just waiting around till the little one wakes up. My mom went to the doctor & last night she gave me some clothes.

It is ten thirty 🕥 and I tried everything on, so far I have eaten my leftovers from skillet and dinner and had two or three cups of coffee. Worked on my shopping list on TEMU & I have plenty of cigarettes.

Happy Birthday Brandon

​It’s Brandon’s twelfth birthday and we’re sitting on the couch 🛋️ just watched “Fantasia 2000”! I’m getting a haircut tomorrow & we’re going to “Cheesecake Factory” tonight. I slept all morning till about 1PM 🕐. Just took my afternoon zany and smoked and drank/drinking two Diet Coke.

Wake Up

​so, I got woken up at 8AM 🕗 by my roommate & ate a egg 🥚 sandwich 🥪 & took my meds. Then took a shower, drank two cups of coffee, and smoked three or four cigarettes. I have three packs left,…

Our normal house mom went on vacation & there is a lady watching us. I texted dad good morning 🌞 but I am waiting for him to get back to me.

Bye Bye Christmas 🎄 & Hello 👋 New Year of 2026” in five days the rent will be paid & I can get my shopping 🛍️ list done. They gave me $150, cash 💵, so far I spent $31.50 on a drink and this vape 💨.

This puppy dog “Turbo” loves me when I come over, just sitting here vaping and drinking some tea. I took a shower and my hair is wet, I used some moose in my hair. People keep asking me for cigarettes and there’s six in the pack and I have three packs left till I get more but I don’t have a drivers license/ID Card & last time they ID 🪪 me and I couldn’t buy them at Dollar tree 🌳! My pants 👖 keep falling down & I lost my iPad, Smoke Roller Machine, and wallet and if I want them I have to pay 💰!

Back at Home

​We didn’t know when to take me home & dad woke me up at 10AM & 11:45AM; my son & I were asleep on the couch. I wanted to go home but more importantly I wanted to get a “Foger” vape & Ever Fresh. 🍓 -$27!

These are the gifts I got for Christmas 🎄!

Growing Up

​So, on October 31st of 2024” ❤️ I moved to a new group home & so far everything has been going ‘alright… I am at my parents house and the little guy has been on his electronics & I got my phone back from charging. There’s one week till ‘payday and I will make +$200 more than $185 … I have a colonoscopy coming soon 🔜! I’m sitting here with my kid ❤️. 

They are cooking 🧑‍🍳 & my sister’s should be here soon & I hope there’s more gifts 🎁 when you’re young it’s easier to take things for granted. He has not even played with what Santa 🎅 brought him. 

So, I just got done paying my dad back for the ticket 🎫 & now ‘my money 💴 will be $385 on the following months. This has taught me that stuff isn’t free & you have to follow the rules and accept the consequences.

Christmas

​The day is finally here & it’s Christmas 🎄… everyone is on their electronics & they woke me up at 8AM 🕗. Now it’s 10:14AM & I just opened a zero coke and smoked a cigarettes 🚬 “it’s just a cigarette…” The little guy acted inappropriate this morning & I received a Hello Kitty, quilt ❤️ cookies tin ❤️ and a wall calendar. Everyone liked the gifts I gave them. My sisters are coming over & I only got them a card. Watching “It’s A Wonderful Life”!

Christmas Eve

​My dad is at the hospital 🏥 with my middle sister and her new baby. He said he would let me know when he can come & pick me up. Took a shower 🚿 & changed into the same clothes. Had toast, eggs, and sausage for breakfast then my meds. That was at 8:45AM & now it’s 10:15AM - 10:31AM & he’s on his way.

I’m so ready to celebrate 🎊 with the little one. Good,… sitting here with the little one & watching ‘Scrooge. It’s 1:30PM ❤️ Dad gave me six packs of Lucky 🍀 Strikes and I put the presents and cards under the tree. I wish… hey, put some clothes on!

We had ‘Texas Roadhouse Chili 🌶️ that was really good. It’s 5:39PM drinking a Pepsi Zero Sugar and 

Tuesday before Christmas 🎄

​so, I had a bang and NOZ can instead of buying the sodas since I am not going to be here for the next three days.

 I bought the little one a card & bubble gum & tootsie roll pops… 

I bought the roommate a large DP. 

Racheal said she would be my caseworker next week also and we get paid on Thursday. When we get paid I will make the good original amount of $385 and really want to buy some clothes.

My dad is picking me up tomorrow on Christmas 🎄 Eve around eight or ten in the morning. I am so excited 😆 too see my son & sharing the holiday with family. 

Monday 🎄 Christmas Week

​Saturday dad was here around eight in the morning and took me to Skillet 🍳 & Dinner where I had a Western Omelette. Then I received five packs of Lucky 🍀 Strike cigarettes. Can you believe Christmas 🎅 is this Thursday and daddy is coming to pick me up the day after tomorrow on Wednesday. I have presents 🎁 & cards for them. I need to get the little one a Birthday card. I have slept most of the day & I’m out of Dr. Pepper & we had ribs.