Happy Thirty Sixth Birthday

It's the day after "My Thirty Sixth Birthday"; and I am the only one in my room at the moment. Thankful for time alone and grateful for growing up. I just started charging My Geek Vape and it's hot outside, about 102'. Enjoyed lunch, of chicken wings, green peas, and a roll. I came home to Hightower at 9:15PM after my parents and I drank coffee and father and I smoked hookah. 

I must say, that I have the coolest parents ever and they are very supportive. We shared wild berry hookah and we stayed at Narah's lounge for about two hours. First, they picked me up at five thirty and I got in the back seat of their aqua Ford Bronco; my mom had made me a sour cream pound cake that is almost gone. I hope everyone in the house enjoyed it. I also had brought my medicine; in a clear round container and I didn't take my medication until after I got home at. First we went to Jin's; which was renamed KBBBQ and had about three plates a piece. At the table there we cooked meats that we got from a buffet and had Chinese noodles and pumpkin porridge. I received A New Journalism Bible, and I plan on reading it straight till the end. 

The Week After Independence

I had a Pleasant Saturday, thinking too myself! After Dad had left, I really started to pay attention to my own heart, again. I listened to some music and too about five educational segments. Then around 3:15PM; I walked to the corner store, TEXACO, and spent $9.06 and bought; a snack? lunch? of Muncho's, A Green Apple Gatorade, and Red Original Venom. I am in Advertising and I enjoy taking photos of what I purchase and.I needed to buy it because around that time I had gotten hungry and I didn't have a plate of lunch, although, The Chicken N' Waffles; we're great but me and my father didn't talk very much but about ten minutes. Outside, of our favorite morning ritual!

I question, myself, what direction,... since I am turning thirty-six what direction I will be heading myself into. My phone doesn't necessarily go into my laptop and the photos don't connect. In fact there's a lot of technical things I would like to know right now; but either I haven't had the time, patience, or objective too I don't know a day that I look mainly too my cell phone or laptop for stats; even though I took the course their simply aren't any. It's 7:18PM; just took my medication as the group was in a line, there's currently six residents in the house on Hightower. I need to read my MHMR handbook; as I am still questioning, why? I wrote on My "Day Dreamer" Planner, why? I wrote I have an appointment tomorrow. 

My Father left me at the CAVE CARE group home around 11:30AM.  Handed me four boxes of Lucky Strike Cigarettes and $40. I also received my Healthy Benefits Package! !  It's the Nineth, and I watched church, this Sunday! Woke up and it was raining, I had several cups of good coffee and even some Starbucks cold brew. With the fellowship of group home members, although, I wonder what is too much and never want to hurt myself by giving time or things they aren't needing or are ungrateful for; for instance giving a woman a pack for some money. Went to breakfast with my dear dad and he told me something. I learned this Sunday that even I am not that strong. I resist the urge to fight, but when verbally over vented has happened; I turn into a recluse and that's not at all possible because tomorrow I have to go to The Center!  Three Coca-Cola's gone and three dollars gone and still, an organized backpack! Even though, I had tried several times to make 

Carpenters On The Roof

The Carpenters: have been working for two day, I sit here and ponder how long their assignment is! As stated by The Woman Leader; It will last two weeks. I have not paid them much attention, but rumors about them being my second cousins and even being romantically involved, is highly unpolite and pointed out by several of these house members who daily stalk my sit and my room. No one, in the entire town deserves to have their money and monetary items destroyed, stolen, or tricked by otherings.

I have been sitting in my room, for the last 45 minutes,.... Math really is funnier, and I ask them to leave my individual rights alone, by picking up a MHMR law guidebook to work on what has really been happening in the last decade, which would entirely take too long. To long for what I won't provide, all the time, really gets on my nerves. As a group of Cave Care Consensus it's not my job to provide this person with peck it with and at me cigarettes to lead to humiliation from humanitarian science.

When you account it to the sound of a hammer and nail going into the panels. A drummer has past away several months ago and I sit here praying to hold on to any amount of life I have left. I have dated two carpenters, my first when I was only fifteen, . . . and we would go into, places only we know. The sounds and hoping their careful up there and knowing that their equipment is mandatory as I learn about writing for young readers. Sometimes, it's been my accountability project and I tested that for myself and on Monday a pack of Lucky Strikes wen't missing. I bought an Omarion Rainbow Blast Vaporizer Today for $30; which are normally displayed at our local Texaco but cost $47. I bought it at Artisan Vapor's when I talked to my Peer Support Counselor from Diadem Hearts. 

I went to MHMR this morning, and when Mr. Tracy got here the Carpenters we're already here. I got home at 12PM, after my appointment and the day before my birthday, I have another appointment!

What's Up Wednesday

I woke up at 7AM and then I laid back down and the man in charge of the house today, woke me up and asked me to wash my bedding and clothes. I was scheduled to work today but Cave Care Child Learning Center is closed. 

I also don't feel good and I am waiting on my laundry. Had several cups of coffee and a bowl of cereal for breakfast. I went to The Northside Adult Day Care Center on Monday and Tuesday and it was ok, I was eager to work this week and don't know when the next time I work. Not too much, going on today, and I need to go threw my emails and papers and organize my room. 

Starting Sunday

My weekend has been good; Dad picked me up at 5:45AM yesterday morning and took me home at 1:30PM. We went to Skillet N' Grill and I had chicken and waffles. Then we went to Lake Grapevine and my father caught seven crappie but I didn't catch anything but little fish and put them back. 

Then we went to Culver's and both ate a twelve-piece shrimp basket. Then he took me home, and before he dropped me off he gave me a 20PK of Coca-Cola Zero Sugar. I started a new job at Cave Child Care Learning Center; and I'm waiting on Mrs. Charnel to respond to my text message. I am having trouble getting signed up and into Intuit account. My official week starts, tomorrow, and I work Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I go to The North Side Adult Day Care Center on Tuesday's and Thursday's. Last Tuesday, Mrs. Charnel called me about a job there and I was excited. I am sure we will work on this tomorrow, but she told me to give her my email address, yesterday, while I was with my dad. 

New Job

I start my new job tomorrow at 8AM! With Mrs. Charnel's Day Care Center. She called me at 12:30PM and offered me a new job filing papers and making documents.  I'm excited and she told me to bring my computer with me tomorrow. She told me she's dropping me off at the day care in the morning for me to get a feel for it. Then is coming back to tell me what to work on and talk about the logistics. 

My case manager was there before I got to The Northside Adult Day Care Center and when I got there she and I got on the phone with Tarrant County College. I am going to have to pay back this $2,582.22 to start going back to school. Just to get a transcript I have to pay this money back. I was blessed, when she offered me the job and I hope it pays well and I can pay my debt off. Being around kids and working on the computer is going to be fun. It will give me a sense of responsibility and I can make good use of my time, instead of wasting money and smoking all my cigarettes. I'm glad she wants me to start working at her daycare instead of me going to daycare.

I just took a shower and washed my hair. I put on the new clothes that Dad bought me; bright yellow sweatpants and a 101 Dalmations shirt. Dad, really took care of me and the family this weekend. He gave me $60; and five new shirts and four pairs of sweatpants. I called him at 3:30PM and he was on his way to go to base to get a haircut. He said we're going fishing on Saturday and he will take me to go eat breakfast at Skillet N' Grill.

This weekend was Easter and I went to my parents house. My Dad, picked me up at 4PM on Friday in my parents new Ford Bronco. Then we went to their house and then my little sister and the little one went to see a movie. The little one is finally adopted by my parents, and they said nothing is going to change between us. He made a lot of slime and offered them too me then took them back. We went fishing on Saturday; and we went to Easter Service at 4:30PM. I was happy to spend Easter with my family. Though, I'm even happier I start work tomorrow. 

Palm Sunday

 It's True; God is calling us! I had five cups of coffee this morning; and buttered toast and scrambled eggs and sausage, cooked by Mrs. Miranda Herself! She was excited to listen to her church service online. So I listened to Hope Church and Fielder. It's Easter Week, LOL! Trying not to get into the bags of candy I bought because I want something to bring for my family this coming weekend. My Father, picked me up at around 6:30AM yesterday morning and we had a great time together. We went to Skillet N' Grill and I had chicken and waffles. The waitress; was carrying her baby and pouring us coffee. I am hoping my little one, whose nine, has a great time with me this coming weekend. Though he didn't want to go fishing with us yesterday and Dad and I spent from 8AM to 10AM at Lake Grapevine. The fish weren't biting so he decided to take me to Walmart and bought me a lovely light purple Easter Dress and some sandles that match. Some coffee and also a half a gallon water bottle that I can bring to the center so I won't want Energy Drinks as much. Oh! The Great Gifts God has given us! I long to draw near to Him and playing a good role and setting myself as a good role model for others. 

Palm Sunday, leads us to Holy Week which Lead To Jesus's Resurrection!  Matthew 6, Sacrifice & Humbleness!

I woke up at 7AM and It's Palm Sunday. The Spirit Of The Lord Is Calling Us! This week I want to really open my heart up to God and let Him Lead ME. I only have $50; $24 on Chime and $25 on Venmo. I bought a new vaporizer that's a disposable and it's an Eclipse Uno, I also bought some CBD and tried it out from Artisan Vapor. My Father and I have similar vaporizers from Luxor's and a housemate just asked me if I could help her buy one. I told her NO, and that she would have to go with her caseworker. Miranda, our caregiver is making us a great meal, and I am in my room thinking about how this week is going to go and how great God is to us! I have a pink MSG Bible and am also reading on Pinterest things about Easter. 

Despite the fights that have been going on here at the house and I am minding my own, and extremely grateful for the Lucky Strikes, . . . I have six packs of unopened Lucky Strikes and a new container of instant coffee My case worker Tammy took me shopping Friday after my dental appointment and My Dad took me shopping, yesterday, on Saturday, April Fools Day. I am Southern Baptist and I was baptized at eleven when I went into Nicoma and had my spinal tap. 

I love the fact, that I have a great family and I get to see them next weekend. We should always be grateful for what we have. I bought new face powder and two packs of twelve cans of soda; Mt. Dews and Dr. Peppers. I sold two cans of Mt. Dew to my housemate and have been very appreciative of everything God has placed in my path and not creating a path of my own. Following through with what the caregivers needed and making good associations through Diadem Hearts. Hopefully, this week I will get a chance to go to Mission Arlington and get some clothes and other stuff. Though, life isn't all about stuff and having good relationships is important. Dear God; Please Lead Us This Week into Your Holy Promise and Thank You For Every Blessing. 

Saturday's Situation

I have spent most of the day, in my room working on a list of topics that I found that I wanted to do more research on throughout my planner. Sorting them from topics to cover Saturday to Sunday and throughout the week. I was surprised and happy that my parents came by and dropped off four packs of Lucky Strikes. 

I'll open a pack at 5PM. It's good to look at your current situation and find ways to make it better. I have a way of letting my mind wander to topics that aren't good for me. We had a good morning, except for the fight that broke out this morning. Though we had the main provider of Cave Care come in and situate everything in proper working order. I am nowhere near perfect, but I tend to stick to myself and am mostly quiet. It meant the world to me that my parents came by. . .

St. Patricks Day

We celebrated St. Patrick's Day at the center today, we wore green sparkly shamrock hats and took photos. They handed out green beads and at the end of the day they took up the hats and the necklaces. It's the weekend and I have ten cigarettes left from what my father handed me last weekend when we went fishing. He said, he can't go this weekend, tomorrow because My Mom and Him are going to be taking pictures. 

I hope he drops by and takes me too breakfast and provides me with four packs of Lucky Strikes. I have learned it is dangerous to make someone, your entire world. God, should take more of your life than anyone and my main concern shouldn't be cigarettes. Although, every weekend he's provided for me, I have been thankful. My parents drove home from little rock, Arkansas, today and I'm still waiting to hear back from them. Spring Break was this week and I had the joy of talking with my case workers. I want to just chill out this weekend and it's Friday! The weekend is a good time to relax and catch up on things. 

St. Patrick's Day Tomorrow

Had a cup of instant coffee, just now, before I went outside to smoke a cigarette. I am thankful for my St. Patrick's Day long sleeve T-Shirt, that My Dad bought for me. Not to be too personal, but I haven't had anything to write about. Using My Happy Planner to record the days in which we go to the center and that's pretty much every day. I'm hoping that, my family, comes home safe and sound tomorrow, and that I will see my father this weekend. I've had my haircut for the last two weeks, and I love it! The storm, seems to be over, and we we're under a Tornado watch till 5PM. 

St. Patrick's Day is tomorrow, and I have only written on the blog once since the beginning of the month. The people at MHMR, put me on Trazadone for better sleep. We're having chicken tonight and tomorrow we're going to the center where we have breakfast and lunch. I believe, we all need a little luck in our lives. 

Matcha Through March

 An unwelcome cut off from My Dad's phone to mine occured before I went outside to smoke the last Lucky Strike in my Third package. He reminded me that I had a package at his house and we talked about more important manners and matters, this time. I told him that Matcha was a very forgiving color, as I am a very forgiving person. I don't like when people stand and are in my way. I normally stick to myself and my other individual who is in this room is giving her story. Hidden behind this white plank of white cabenitry I feel like a spy ... Instead a needing to clean room and another coat of polish. 

Since My last story with Samuel, I realize this coat of polish shoes that someone had worked powers of my heart! As I sang, . . . I Am a Dead Girl! We normally; sit outside at the center, and today a box of books showed up. I got a new Reader's Digest and a Book of Proverbs. My Adulting 101 Book, 

I bought thirteen months ago at The Ross that Job had wanted me to work at , . . . and My Explosive Child Book from My Parents still situated without being opened for a while. 

I talked about HOPE Church; but honestly I just remember fights around there! When I was homeless, and now I have been in this house 28 months. As A War Doll; of my dear beloved father, I am reminded to treat myself as a princess and not listen to these other statements of meanness. 

Thankful Thursday

 I consider how I slept last night, forced at the bottom of everyone's feet. When I was invited, they weren't too. . . Nice to me, so I left, people have threatened me out of a lot of beautiful experiences I could have had. Last night my favorite and big matching Geek Vape went to 0.00V from 40.0V and I don't know what what that means. Though I woke up, the rain and snow are melting and I try to see from everyone's perspective. I wrote in my Happy Planner about Appropriations this week and it has been snowing and raining and the walk to the store is a dangerous route.

I normally receive $25 a week and My Dad is my Pay-E. Not knowing how much or what it is worth is a dangerous thing. I am looking forward to every weekend but smoking all four packs that fast, kinda concerned me. I have Chime and Venmo after having a long relationship with Frost Bank. Which was stooken away from when I gone camping.

I just made oatmeal and knowingly I have no cigarettes left! I keep my blog for myself and AVE College has accepted me and they are charging me a non needed fee of $28,000?

2 Samuel 3:21 at 9:14PM

And Abner said to them & David, "I will arise and go and will gather all isreal to My Lord the king, that they may make a covenent with you, and that you may reign over all that your heart desires." So David sent Abner away, and he went in peace!

Lunar Lapsing

 I have a small book of John placed in front of me; sinning through the streets for a long walk of two miles in the snow. My Dad used to joke that he would walk in Mississippi eight miles in the snow. A lot of these things are because of what my parents have said. I'm glad I have good friends but my roommate and I are having a hard time understanding each other. Only eight cigarettes left after I have had my two mile walk and got a random ride through the streets in a nice car.

The Dylan apartments are nice though they keep working on the water, air conditioning, and sounds. I have felt this through a lifetime of being thirteen and I'm sorry I left off my project of Lunar New Year without warning. Still at 35; which I did just take my medication I feel like a child.  

I don't like whistling my teeth with my cigarettes, it's expensive and I only have $12 left! Left or Right Window? Let me tell you when I was working at McDonalds I couldn't tell the difference between right and wrong and mostly my life depended on guys and cocaine! I worked in a mathmatical lab at thirteen and I have two bowls of cereal and an addiction to what we met on concrete. 

This wedding ring is real; and I was asked to remove it by fifteen people since I was sixteen. When they asked where was he, he was still stuck coal mining! Who's farm was it because it's warmer and now our weather is all messed up!