Test Taking Thursday’s

​I bought a Dr. Pepper from the vending machine; the dollar I got from my roommate for a cigarette. Last night we had a lot of pizza 🍕. It’s 1:30PM; and we’re headed back home from being at the center. From medical testing to school testing; and everything in between. There are big and small tests you take everyday; things that take work and improvement in the right direction. Such as learning to step up and take initiative in life.

I’m starting to see that I am taking more control of my life and not getting as defensive as I was in the past. I’m wanting to know what is going to happen in the future. I’ve had several people tell me that I have potential to still have a bright future. I’m praying that God and My Mentors show me ways in which I can improve. I’m Especially getting anxious about what is going to happen with my student loans. I want to know if there is steps to take to be able to graduate or work again.

On the way home; the lady driving us and in charge of the center told me I should start a mental health magazine. She said she hasn’t had any time to read my blog after I asked her. She said she would help me with it but it’ll take a while. I don’t have the slightest clue on how to make a magazine but she continued saying that there hasn’t been one and I could do it. 

I am proud that I made it too my Senior Year; but then I dropped out of my Senior Year twice. The first time I dropped out; I was taking Geography, Public Relations Case Studies, IMC Campaigns, and Communication Technology. Test taking has never been easy for me and I have high anxiety. Though even tougher is knowing what to do in life right now. I’m smoking a third cigarette since I have come home and I am thinking about starting on new adventures.

I’m willing to do what it takes too be successful and I am trying not too go into debt or waste too much time. I finished reading “The Night Portrait”; this morning and I really liked the book. There’s free courses on Coursera I can take and I would like to get on my laptop. Things have really changed since WWII and Leonardo Da Vince’s time; reading about war right around Memorial Day was awesome. I had a few members of my family that fought in WWII. 

The next book I am reading is “The Lost Family” by Jenna Blum; who is a New York Bestselling Author. The book takes place in Manhattan in 1960 and is about a chef bachelor who came from a Nazi death camp where his wife and two young daughters died. The story is about how he starts his life with a new woman but his memories overshadow him.