Saturday Skillet

    I just came inside from smoking two or three cigarettes; and I am resting in bed after drinking coffee. My Dad took me out to Skillet N' Grill, again this morning. I had chicken and waffles and honey Dijon and I have some of an omelet in the fridge. A quiet morning: but the silly part is I haven't been waking up when my alarm goes off at 6AM. Instead, I've been waking up after turning it off around the time the house worker arrives. 

    It's about ten thirty; and I have Pinterest open and need inspiration. Maybe learn on how to improve my relationships or just find something interesting in general. It's the weekend and I have nothing planned and nothing to do. 

    Ten Things I AM grateful for: 1. My Family: I have a great Father, who I can depend on. Thank you for taking me out to breakfast! 2. My Daily Writing Ability! 3. My Love of God 4. SSI 5. A Warm Bed 6. Clothing and getting to do laundry once a week. 7. Drinks and food! 8. Relationships within the group home. 9. Reading Articles. 10. Transportation to places I need to get to.'

 

Friday After Thanksgiving

    Back inside from smoking, sitting on my bed and just drank my last Pepsi. I had a great thanksgiving, and my roommate is playing Christmas music. A couple of days ago, she surprised me by buying me gummy bears. My Dad came and picked me up Wednesday at 11AM and we went to go eat at King Buffet. It was a big buffet full of every type of Chinese food. Then we got a fishing license at Walmart, and he got me a vanilla milkshake from Sonic. The little one wanted a lot of "Alone Time"! 

    Then on Thanksgiving, Mom and Dad spent all day cooking together. I stayed in the extra bedroom and each night I fell asleep earlier than they did. We had ham, green bean casserole, sweet potatoes, and some other stuff. That night Mom made a pecan pie and we had ice cream. I don't cook and mostly we eat at the center that we attend Mon-Fri from 9AM to 2PM. I guess the rest of the group is there, anyway, I have no idea where most of the group is. 

    Then He dropped me off at 9:45AM, after we ate at Skillet N' Grill! I had chicken and waffles, and my leftovers are in the Fridge. Had Smart Popcorn and a Big Red and a Pepsi, and a lot of coffee. It's the Friday after Thanksgiving and I don't have much money, only about $8. 

The Weekend

My Dad took me out to breakfast at Skillet N' Grill; I had chicken n' waffles with honey Dijon mustard. He overslept and picked me up around 9:45AM; and we had a lovely breakfast. It's 11:20AM and I am sitting on my bed; with my laptop open thinking about how they didn't go home for Thanksgiving but instead wanted to spend Thanksgiving with me!  In three days; plus including today, ... I will be over at my parents' house spending The Thanksgiving Holiday. I'm Excited!

I need to learn to budget my money better! I spent most of my money this week; and I have $6 left. Payday isn't for another two or three weeks. On the 2nd he gave me $60 on Venmo; and he gave me $60 cash and took me shopping on the 4th. I bought my pink and purple camo pants; they weren't exactly what I wanted but their still cute and cost less than $20 for both of them. I added $10 to My iPhone 11 account and bought two new apps: The Minimalist App and Chronical. I spent $15 and bought my little ones Christmas and Birthday presents. 

Today is a day for cleaning up; I mopped the floor, right before I left to go to breakfast. I have a closet full of clothing,... A nightside table and a nightside dresser drawer,... 

Just ate a hamburger and french fries for lunch and drank half a Pepsi, I only have three or four Pepsi's left.

Today is a day to take care of myself! If you don't take care of yourself, things don't go good. My stomach hurts and I'm still coughing a little bit. 

Sickness Sunday

It's the last day of the weekend before we have to go to The Center. Drinking coffee and had three donuts and a breakfast burrito. Listening to Elevation Church Online; changed my sweatpants because I stinked like piss, this morning and it's disgusting and mostly all my clothes are dirty, and I can't wash them till Wednesday. I wish I felt better, ... I had been coughing and coughing and barely feeling like myself. Drinking coffee; remembering all the good things God has done or is still doing. 

It's 11:40AM; and it's almost lunch time. I won't see my family for a while because they're going to Mississippi, so My Father can go hunting. Sitting here with all my pens out and thinking of what to do next. I'm taking courses on Coursera but chose to chill out and prepare for the week.

Had a Dr. Pepper, then two PB&J sandwiches. Then walked next door and bought two Venom Energy Drinks. Went outside and smoked and now I'm just sitting on my bed relaxing. 

Veteran's Day Birthday

Dad just dropped me off at the Rosedale house around 9AM; and as soon as I arrived, I turned in my medicine box and got a cup of coffee. We celebrated My Mother's 55TH Birthday last night; and ate at "The Taste Of Europe" and I ordered Braught Werst and mustard and a German Beer. We didn't go to Narah's last night, but we celebrated a good Birthday. I gave her a vest and a sweater, and a card. He picked me up at 11:45 AM and I left my medicine at the group home, and we had to go back and get the medicine around 2:20PM after we got lunch at Sonic; I got an Orange Cream Slush and Double Bacon Cheeseburger and large onion rings. 

It felt good being with the family, despite the fact I was sick. I have been coughing since the third of this month and wheezing and when I cough I sometimes have been pissing on myself. I was asked on Thursday what I wanted to do with my life; and honestly I wish I knew. Pondering that question, while one roommate who just asked a wierd question and the rest of them are eating pancakes. 

I had fun eatting at Skillet N' Grill with My Father this morning and unfortunately, they'll be out of town next weekend. They're going to Mississippi on the seventeenth and won't be back till the twenty sixth. Dad gave me four packs of Lucky Strike Cigarettes. I sheepishly asked, . . . Dad for some more money but he didn't give me any, he said last week I used all my pay and I still have $35 left over. 

Mostly Monday

Today, I need a nap and I'm relaxing in my bed with my cuddly pink Hello Kitty Blanket; I got for My 36TH Birthday. I long for comfort and none of this nonsense; we just got finished eating two ham and cheese sandwiches and I had two bags of chips barbeque chips and Cheetos and a Pepsi. We celebrated a birthday today at the center and had a cupcake. I have a bad cough and cold and am wheezing, I hope this passes soon.  

I had a really great weekend; bought a nice $26 Time and True Purse and $26 Time and True Boots. Waiting for my new purple and pink camouflage pants to come in around the seventeenth. That was one of the main things we went to Walmart to look for and we couldn't find them. I ended up buying them on Temu for $20; and spent $15 on gifts for the little one. 

I don't have much left, but we're finally having Pizza tonight! 

First Weekend Of November

​Eating a good sandwich 🥪, Cheetos, and drinking a Pepsi; sitting with the group of girls and having a good lunch. Today is Daylight Savings Day, so the clocks ⏰ turned back an hour and I can’t reset my wrist watch ⌚️. It’s the start of November and I don’t have much money and went shopping 🛒 yesterday with My Father after we ate at Skillet N’ Grill where I got chicken and waffles and grits with gravy.

I am having a hard time getting along with the group and sitting in the living room and just provided our caregiver a Pepsi. I am eating a bag of Cool Ranch Doritos and finishing my Pepsi. As we watch some Country Western Show on TV 📺. All these individuals go broke then want to complain and this loud mouth 👄 talking about hurtful stuff needs to stop 🛑.

Warning Wednesday Washed

Today rent was due $700; I'm sitting in my room thinking of the things that are too come this month. It's annoying to always get asked for cigarettes but the new house is ok. It's a one story house right by a store where I recently bought a Pod King XC5000 Elf Bar.  

Besides two people throwing fits and that rent has gone up. At least I have a roof over my head and a comfy bed to sit and rest and lay on. I get paid about $260 on Friday; and I am looking forward to getting a fishing license with My Father. 

Wanting to go to Walmart and To Luxor's this weekend on Saturday. I came home to find that my bedding and my clothing were done and I have plenty of laundry pods to wash clothes with, luckily I've been grateful for. Found these great sweatpants that are purple and pink camouflage.

Bought these purple and pink camo sweatpants for less than $20 on Temu! I've been doing a lot of shopping on Temu. 

Saturday Settlement

Trajectories from Testing for the rest of the mindful month and far off visions,... seemingly getting better as I just finished my own box of food and saved the coffee cup from Skillet N' Grill where Dad and I went on our date to eat breakfast like we usually do every Saturday morning.  It rained for a while, and I woke up at 6AM and took a shower; as we are used to the good families sticking mainly too themselves. 

Next month; I am looking forward too going shopping with my father too Walmart because we haven't gone to Walmart since two months ago. If everybodies different then we all understand eachother; a harder burden on myself than I would like. Though when I meet this councilor she said that would be nice of her answer to my mothers burning question of if the ten year old and myself could have our own friends. After many recognitions that I read the first chapter of Joyce Girl and plan on finishing it this winter. The holidays seem all blood clotted up and over expenditured; be careful with yourself and other people. Last time in jail does happen in January of 2020 to March 2020 and the next time I go to jail I will go to jail for six months; although I haven't been too impatient or persistent and I am figuring we are all bipolar from The Bible. I'm on page 215; Deuteronomy 24,! In My/Our Big Media Journalism Bible. So after reading these both this afternoon {y?} Leaving Us Bitter Illegal / Immigrants,...

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We one day will all equal God Sisters and no one is stronger than anyone else because it's illegal to fight your sisters, even if you come from the wierdest / wildest / worldly/ wiked / wisest music in the world - Johnny Boy

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Was I too loud; since we moved in I have heard 258 statements screamed at me from a mean girl weakening from what's angry and taken her pain and anger out on me, from what was a dudes first fault but I shouldn't be blamed and no longer do I welcome cuz' nothing comes free;... WordPress or Blogger; and remembering my brain memory realizing how desperate even I am too share money and that I was grateful for my Ghost drink but it doesn't all equal to equal, does it A! Life isn't a straight path with your way going all the time and people can make it hard on people.

Either way this girl was too messy and too messed up; for anything to really help her a pick pocket, has a right to do,... what from a princess! The first proprietor has what chance if the item was stolen? so even to the day she pretty much owned my fifteen sticker dollars in questioning. Asking me too leave since day one of this adventure was her worst mistake. To take her too Casa Azul where I bought the ungrateful woman a hot chocolate mocha and myself a Marigold Mocha has been a mistake. 

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I appreciate everything a dark-skinned queen like A does for me including one, two, three store bought drinks this week. Any room this size of eighteen by eighteen equalled it as a missing pack of Lucky Strikes went missing; charging my Geek Vape now. Found a better friend from NIK and she traded me Lucky Juice Mixed Berry EJuice for a coral colored Geek Vaporizer; and I can't believe that it's already Halloween. Marking off one of my task of a no spend challenge to give away a valuable gift to another person. I don't know why now that since I tried all those rings on I now had too give my necklaces away and why such a younger woman who promises me that she does anything and everything. 

I own the Lavendar one since August 11th 2023 

    Smoking on Mixed Berry and hearing my roommate and another housemate stepped in to my room, she has always been stealing from me and this item better never go missing and I really don't like sharing it with other people especially people with bad attititudees but today I had had a good attitude and finished my plate of waffles after working on my Blogger and Wordpress for an hour 

Tuesday’s Testimony

​Good Morning; Mr. Tracy just arrived and yet again I didn’t wake up when the alarm ⏰ went off! I am sitting outside with the group,… smoking! I was able to change my layout to one that doesn’t have columns! I like it better! Knowing that we need to treat people respectfully and yesterday;… my father and family were back from Hot 🥵 Springs. We talked about how those people were cousins and he asked me if I had been a good girl. I’m kinda concerned that my 🖤 emoticons show nothing but a blonde haired girl.

Even at 8:07AM;… I kinda was upset that for the twentieth time my Zippo from two Christmas 🎄 ago went missing again. My slushy blue Mio went out also! Thinking about how this life is and isn’t fair! Though too much on that thought would destroy me.

Happy Thirty Sixth Birthday

It's the day after "My Thirty Sixth Birthday"; and I am the only one in my room at the moment. Thankful for time alone and grateful for growing up. I just started charging My Geek Vape and it's hot outside, about 102'. Enjoyed lunch, of chicken wings, green peas, and a roll. I came home to Hightower at 9:15PM after my parents and I drank coffee and father and I smoked hookah. 

I must say, that I have the coolest parents ever and they are very supportive. We shared wild berry hookah and we stayed at Narah's lounge for about two hours. First, they picked me up at five thirty and I got in the back seat of their aqua Ford Bronco; my mom had made me a sour cream pound cake that is almost gone. I hope everyone in the house enjoyed it. I also had brought my medicine; in a clear round container and I didn't take my medication until after I got home at. First we went to Jin's; which was renamed KBBBQ and had about three plates a piece. At the table there we cooked meats that we got from a buffet and had Chinese noodles and pumpkin porridge. I received A New Journalism Bible, and I plan on reading it straight till the end. 

The Week After Independence

I had a Pleasant Saturday, thinking too myself! After Dad had left, I really started to pay attention to my own heart, again. I listened to some music and too about five educational segments. Then around 3:15PM; I walked to the corner store, TEXACO, and spent $9.06 and bought; a snack? lunch? of Muncho's, A Green Apple Gatorade, and Red Original Venom. I am in Advertising and I enjoy taking photos of what I purchase and.I needed to buy it because around that time I had gotten hungry and I didn't have a plate of lunch, although, The Chicken N' Waffles; we're great but me and my father didn't talk very much but about ten minutes. Outside, of our favorite morning ritual!

I question, myself, what direction,... since I am turning thirty-six what direction I will be heading myself into. My phone doesn't necessarily go into my laptop and the photos don't connect. In fact there's a lot of technical things I would like to know right now; but either I haven't had the time, patience, or objective too I don't know a day that I look mainly too my cell phone or laptop for stats; even though I took the course their simply aren't any. It's 7:18PM; just took my medication as the group was in a line, there's currently six residents in the house on Hightower. I need to read my MHMR handbook; as I am still questioning, why? I wrote on My "Day Dreamer" Planner, why? I wrote I have an appointment tomorrow. 

My Father left me at the CAVE CARE group home around 11:30AM.  Handed me four boxes of Lucky Strike Cigarettes and $40. I also received my Healthy Benefits Package! !  It's the Nineth, and I watched church, this Sunday! Woke up and it was raining, I had several cups of good coffee and even some Starbucks cold brew. With the fellowship of group home members, although, I wonder what is too much and never want to hurt myself by giving time or things they aren't needing or are ungrateful for; for instance giving a woman a pack for some money. Went to breakfast with my dear dad and he told me something. I learned this Sunday that even I am not that strong. I resist the urge to fight, but when verbally over vented has happened; I turn into a recluse and that's not at all possible because tomorrow I have to go to The Center!  Three Coca-Cola's gone and three dollars gone and still, an organized backpack! Even though, I had tried several times to make 

Carpenters On The Roof

The Carpenters: have been working for two day, I sit here and ponder how long their assignment is! As stated by The Woman Leader; It will last two weeks. I have not paid them much attention, but rumors about them being my second cousins and even being romantically involved, is highly unpolite and pointed out by several of these house members who daily stalk my sit and my room. No one, in the entire town deserves to have their money and monetary items destroyed, stolen, or tricked by otherings.

I have been sitting in my room, for the last 45 minutes,.... Math really is funnier, and I ask them to leave my individual rights alone, by picking up a MHMR law guidebook to work on what has really been happening in the last decade, which would entirely take too long. To long for what I won't provide, all the time, really gets on my nerves. As a group of Cave Care Consensus it's not my job to provide this person with peck it with and at me cigarettes to lead to humiliation from humanitarian science.

When you account it to the sound of a hammer and nail going into the panels. A drummer has past away several months ago and I sit here praying to hold on to any amount of life I have left. I have dated two carpenters, my first when I was only fifteen, . . . and we would go into, places only we know. The sounds and hoping their careful up there and knowing that their equipment is mandatory as I learn about writing for young readers. Sometimes, it's been my accountability project and I tested that for myself and on Monday a pack of Lucky Strikes wen't missing. I bought an Omarion Rainbow Blast Vaporizer Today for $30; which are normally displayed at our local Texaco but cost $47. I bought it at Artisan Vapor's when I talked to my Peer Support Counselor from Diadem Hearts. 

I went to MHMR this morning, and when Mr. Tracy got here the Carpenters we're already here. I got home at 12PM, after my appointment and the day before my birthday, I have another appointment!

What's Up Wednesday

I woke up at 7AM and then I laid back down and the man in charge of the house today, woke me up and asked me to wash my bedding and clothes. I was scheduled to work today but Cave Care Child Learning Center is closed. 

I also don't feel good and I am waiting on my laundry. Had several cups of coffee and a bowl of cereal for breakfast. I went to The Northside Adult Day Care Center on Monday and Tuesday and it was ok, I was eager to work this week and don't know when the next time I work. Not too much, going on today, and I need to go threw my emails and papers and organize my room. 

Starting Sunday

My weekend has been good; Dad picked me up at 5:45AM yesterday morning and took me home at 1:30PM. We went to Skillet N' Grill and I had chicken and waffles. Then we went to Lake Grapevine and my father caught seven crappie but I didn't catch anything but little fish and put them back. 

Then we went to Culver's and both ate a twelve-piece shrimp basket. Then he took me home, and before he dropped me off he gave me a 20PK of Coca-Cola Zero Sugar. I started a new job at Cave Child Care Learning Center; and I'm waiting on Mrs. Charnel to respond to my text message. I am having trouble getting signed up and into Intuit account. My official week starts, tomorrow, and I work Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I go to The North Side Adult Day Care Center on Tuesday's and Thursday's. Last Tuesday, Mrs. Charnel called me about a job there and I was excited. I am sure we will work on this tomorrow, but she told me to give her my email address, yesterday, while I was with my dad. 

New Job

I start my new job tomorrow at 8AM! With Mrs. Charnel's Day Care Center. She called me at 12:30PM and offered me a new job filing papers and making documents.  I'm excited and she told me to bring my computer with me tomorrow. She told me she's dropping me off at the day care in the morning for me to get a feel for it. Then is coming back to tell me what to work on and talk about the logistics. 

My case manager was there before I got to The Northside Adult Day Care Center and when I got there she and I got on the phone with Tarrant County College. I am going to have to pay back this $2,582.22 to start going back to school. Just to get a transcript I have to pay this money back. I was blessed, when she offered me the job and I hope it pays well and I can pay my debt off. Being around kids and working on the computer is going to be fun. It will give me a sense of responsibility and I can make good use of my time, instead of wasting money and smoking all my cigarettes. I'm glad she wants me to start working at her daycare instead of me going to daycare.

I just took a shower and washed my hair. I put on the new clothes that Dad bought me; bright yellow sweatpants and a 101 Dalmations shirt. Dad, really took care of me and the family this weekend. He gave me $60; and five new shirts and four pairs of sweatpants. I called him at 3:30PM and he was on his way to go to base to get a haircut. He said we're going fishing on Saturday and he will take me to go eat breakfast at Skillet N' Grill.

This weekend was Easter and I went to my parents house. My Dad, picked me up at 4PM on Friday in my parents new Ford Bronco. Then we went to their house and then my little sister and the little one went to see a movie. The little one is finally adopted by my parents, and they said nothing is going to change between us. He made a lot of slime and offered them too me then took them back. We went fishing on Saturday; and we went to Easter Service at 4:30PM. I was happy to spend Easter with my family. Though, I'm even happier I start work tomorrow. 

Palm Sunday

 It's True; God is calling us! I had five cups of coffee this morning; and buttered toast and scrambled eggs and sausage, cooked by Mrs. Miranda Herself! She was excited to listen to her church service online. So I listened to Hope Church and Fielder. It's Easter Week, LOL! Trying not to get into the bags of candy I bought because I want something to bring for my family this coming weekend. My Father, picked me up at around 6:30AM yesterday morning and we had a great time together. We went to Skillet N' Grill and I had chicken and waffles. The waitress; was carrying her baby and pouring us coffee. I am hoping my little one, whose nine, has a great time with me this coming weekend. Though he didn't want to go fishing with us yesterday and Dad and I spent from 8AM to 10AM at Lake Grapevine. The fish weren't biting so he decided to take me to Walmart and bought me a lovely light purple Easter Dress and some sandles that match. Some coffee and also a half a gallon water bottle that I can bring to the center so I won't want Energy Drinks as much. Oh! The Great Gifts God has given us! I long to draw near to Him and playing a good role and setting myself as a good role model for others. 

Palm Sunday, leads us to Holy Week which Lead To Jesus's Resurrection!  Matthew 6, Sacrifice & Humbleness!

I woke up at 7AM and It's Palm Sunday. The Spirit Of The Lord Is Calling Us! This week I want to really open my heart up to God and let Him Lead ME. I only have $50; $24 on Chime and $25 on Venmo. I bought a new vaporizer that's a disposable and it's an Eclipse Uno, I also bought some CBD and tried it out from Artisan Vapor. My Father and I have similar vaporizers from Luxor's and a housemate just asked me if I could help her buy one. I told her NO, and that she would have to go with her caseworker. Miranda, our caregiver is making us a great meal, and I am in my room thinking about how this week is going to go and how great God is to us! I have a pink MSG Bible and am also reading on Pinterest things about Easter. 

Despite the fights that have been going on here at the house and I am minding my own, and extremely grateful for the Lucky Strikes, . . . I have six packs of unopened Lucky Strikes and a new container of instant coffee My case worker Tammy took me shopping Friday after my dental appointment and My Dad took me shopping, yesterday, on Saturday, April Fools Day. I am Southern Baptist and I was baptized at eleven when I went into Nicoma and had my spinal tap. 

I love the fact, that I have a great family and I get to see them next weekend. We should always be grateful for what we have. I bought new face powder and two packs of twelve cans of soda; Mt. Dews and Dr. Peppers. I sold two cans of Mt. Dew to my housemate and have been very appreciative of everything God has placed in my path and not creating a path of my own. Following through with what the caregivers needed and making good associations through Diadem Hearts. Hopefully, this week I will get a chance to go to Mission Arlington and get some clothes and other stuff. Though, life isn't all about stuff and having good relationships is important. Dear God; Please Lead Us This Week into Your Holy Promise and Thank You For Every Blessing. 

Saturday's Situation

I have spent most of the day, in my room working on a list of topics that I found that I wanted to do more research on throughout my planner. Sorting them from topics to cover Saturday to Sunday and throughout the week. I was surprised and happy that my parents came by and dropped off four packs of Lucky Strikes. 

I'll open a pack at 5PM. It's good to look at your current situation and find ways to make it better. I have a way of letting my mind wander to topics that aren't good for me. We had a good morning, except for the fight that broke out this morning. Though we had the main provider of Cave Care come in and situate everything in proper working order. I am nowhere near perfect, but I tend to stick to myself and am mostly quiet. It meant the world to me that my parents came by. . .

St. Patricks Day

We celebrated St. Patrick's Day at the center today, we wore green sparkly shamrock hats and took photos. They handed out green beads and at the end of the day they took up the hats and the necklaces. It's the weekend and I have ten cigarettes left from what my father handed me last weekend when we went fishing. He said, he can't go this weekend, tomorrow because My Mom and Him are going to be taking pictures. 

I hope he drops by and takes me too breakfast and provides me with four packs of Lucky Strikes. I have learned it is dangerous to make someone, your entire world. God, should take more of your life than anyone and my main concern shouldn't be cigarettes. Although, every weekend he's provided for me, I have been thankful. My parents drove home from little rock, Arkansas, today and I'm still waiting to hear back from them. Spring Break was this week and I had the joy of talking with my case workers. I want to just chill out this weekend and it's Friday! The weekend is a good time to relax and catch up on things. 

St. Patrick's Day Tomorrow

Had a cup of instant coffee, just now, before I went outside to smoke a cigarette. I am thankful for my St. Patrick's Day long sleeve T-Shirt, that My Dad bought for me. Not to be too personal, but I haven't had anything to write about. Using My Happy Planner to record the days in which we go to the center and that's pretty much every day. I'm hoping that, my family, comes home safe and sound tomorrow, and that I will see my father this weekend. I've had my haircut for the last two weeks, and I love it! The storm, seems to be over, and we we're under a Tornado watch till 5PM. 

St. Patrick's Day is tomorrow, and I have only written on the blog once since the beginning of the month. The people at MHMR, put me on Trazadone for better sleep. We're having chicken tonight and tomorrow we're going to the center where we have breakfast and lunch. I believe, we all need a little luck in our lives. 

Matcha Through March

 An unwelcome cut off from My Dad's phone to mine occured before I went outside to smoke the last Lucky Strike in my Third package. He reminded me that I had a package at his house and we talked about more important manners and matters, this time. I told him that Matcha was a very forgiving color, as I am a very forgiving person. I don't like when people stand and are in my way. I normally stick to myself and my other individual who is in this room is giving her story. Hidden behind this white plank of white cabenitry I feel like a spy ... Instead a needing to clean room and another coat of polish. 

Since My last story with Samuel, I realize this coat of polish shoes that someone had worked powers of my heart! As I sang, . . . I Am a Dead Girl! We normally; sit outside at the center, and today a box of books showed up. I got a new Reader's Digest and a Book of Proverbs. My Adulting 101 Book, 

I bought thirteen months ago at The Ross that Job had wanted me to work at , . . . and My Explosive Child Book from My Parents still situated without being opened for a while. 

I talked about HOPE Church; but honestly I just remember fights around there! When I was homeless, and now I have been in this house 28 months. As A War Doll; of my dear beloved father, I am reminded to treat myself as a princess and not listen to these other statements of meanness. 

Thankful Thursday

 I consider how I slept last night, forced at the bottom of everyone's feet. When I was invited, they weren't too. . . Nice to me, so I left, people have threatened me out of a lot of beautiful experiences I could have had. Last night my favorite and big matching Geek Vape went to 0.00V from 40.0V and I don't know what what that means. Though I woke up, the rain and snow are melting and I try to see from everyone's perspective. I wrote in my Happy Planner about Appropriations this week and it has been snowing and raining and the walk to the store is a dangerous route.

I normally receive $25 a week and My Dad is my Pay-E. Not knowing how much or what it is worth is a dangerous thing. I am looking forward to every weekend but smoking all four packs that fast, kinda concerned me. I have Chime and Venmo after having a long relationship with Frost Bank. Which was stooken away from when I gone camping.

I just made oatmeal and knowingly I have no cigarettes left! I keep my blog for myself and AVE College has accepted me and they are charging me a non needed fee of $28,000?

2 Samuel 3:21 at 9:14PM

And Abner said to them & David, "I will arise and go and will gather all isreal to My Lord the king, that they may make a covenent with you, and that you may reign over all that your heart desires." So David sent Abner away, and he went in peace!

Lunar Lapsing

 I have a small book of John placed in front of me; sinning through the streets for a long walk of two miles in the snow. My Dad used to joke that he would walk in Mississippi eight miles in the snow. A lot of these things are because of what my parents have said. I'm glad I have good friends but my roommate and I are having a hard time understanding each other. Only eight cigarettes left after I have had my two mile walk and got a random ride through the streets in a nice car.

The Dylan apartments are nice though they keep working on the water, air conditioning, and sounds. I have felt this through a lifetime of being thirteen and I'm sorry I left off my project of Lunar New Year without warning. Still at 35; which I did just take my medication I feel like a child.  

I don't like whistling my teeth with my cigarettes, it's expensive and I only have $12 left! Left or Right Window? Let me tell you when I was working at McDonalds I couldn't tell the difference between right and wrong and mostly my life depended on guys and cocaine! I worked in a mathmatical lab at thirteen and I have two bowls of cereal and an addiction to what we met on concrete. 

This wedding ring is real; and I was asked to remove it by fifteen people since I was sixteen. When they asked where was he, he was still stuck coal mining! Who's farm was it because it's warmer and now our weather is all messed up!

Waking Up

I'm still tired, after waking up at 8AM and going outside to smoke and having two cups of coffee. It's raining here in Fort Worth Texas, and we didn't go to the center today. A meeting with a new Doctor for the house. We're allowed to sit two people in the front of the house to smoke. I'm waiting for another cup of coffee and happy we get to chill out at the house today. When waking up what is the first thing you do? Some of my favorite things are to smoke, drink a cup of coffee, or get dressed. Though most of my life I have been lazy and I really had a good time listening to music on my earbuds instead of dealing with my housemates yesterday.

I'm charging my Geek Vape on my computer and writing, like I said, I intend on writing for sixteen days straight. As it said about The Lunar New Years, yesterday I was watching a movie called Home and I got kinda upset when one of the housemates turned it off. My Psycho Social case worker from Diadem Hearts gave me homework to do that involves writing feelings and I didn't write it last night. Often times, I'm forgetful and I really don't want to be complacent.

Lunar New Year 2023

Telling on people is just not cool, didn't go to sleep last night but stayed up thinking to myself. Things that have been going on are ok! I look forward to hearing more from Job from Diadem Hearts about going to school, this Fall of 23"! I just came inside from smoking a cigarette and it's almost 6AM. Made a cup of instant coffee and sat by the side of the house. I am mumbling. sentences and phrases that don't sound like my own and want to get to the bottom of it! Maybe Imposter Syndrome?  I'm labeled as schizophrenic and bi-polar and have to be very careful! So last night I celebrated. by staying up all night after I heard about The Lunar New Year; a Chinese tradition celebrated for 16 Days and this year it's the year of the Rabbit!

I had a great weekend; My Dad took me to Luxor's and we got a new coil, although I tried it after we bought it and thought I messed it up! I have had My Geek Vape since October of last year and it is one of my favorite things. He also bought me two things of juice Tigers Blood and CCCP+. He tried it and said he might even buy himself a vaporizer, he's trying to stop smoking. Which is good, I love my Dad and respect and boundaries are important. He just celebrated His 60th Birthday, and We went out for breakfast at Skillet N' Grill where I got Chicken N' Waffles and finished his hash browns. Then we went fishing and I caught 4 good sized crappie.

I don't want to sit here and write too much about My Dad but he is the major person in my life that's taking care of me! I have been close to a housemate but I know we have our differences and don't always see eye to eye. Like last week when she told the Group Home owner I didn't want to go to the center. I just want to relax and take care of myself and hide away from danger! I have my medicine in a ziplock bag for this morning too take in a few minutes and I was gifted four boxes of cigarettes from him. He also took me out for lunch! 

It's Monday, and the start of The Last Week of January last weekend My Mom who gave me a beautiful Happy Planner started school two weeks ago. She is going back to school at UTA for Her Second Bachelor's Degree in Journalism. I'm a writter also and my main focus is finishing up my degree in Advertising and Public Relations. There's a lot up in the air about what my future may hold. Although I am a LEO and Rabbit Horoscope states . . . "Will lead way this year, I work best in a TEAM, I need Social Support of those around me to be strong this year through Responsibility! I need to be More Protective over stuff and take care of what I have!

A Leader Amongst Strong Individuals . . . Heavenly Gate Race This Year! 

 

Today, we have to go to the center . . . The Northside Adult Daycare Center! I bring my purse and my mini backpack that are light pink and try to write as much as I can without smoking all my cigarettes up! Mostly since the beginning of this year I have been sitting outside and enjoying when my housemates sit by me and not so happy when they bum cigarettes off of me and need to stop going to the corner store near by that I've already spent $170, at since October of last year when we started going there. Money is tight and I have $53 in my chime account and $25 on Venmo! I'm not going to ask Dad for money this week and work on improving myself and helping those around me! 

 

Happy New Year

It's 2023; and I am happy to be alive...  It's The New Year and I look forward to what each day brings. No need to go anywhere and we had red beans and rice. I woke up to having our main caregiver bring us Krispy Kreme doughnuts and had five cups of coffee. I didn't blog much in December, but we had a good Christmas and the little one liked his presents. The family went to Mississippi, and Dad texted me this morning "Happy New Years!" I don't have any goals set but my main objective is to stay here, safe at the group home. Where off from the center tomorrow; and since today is the first of the year, I am reading and writing about what I would like to accomplish. Which seems I have been spending too much time vaping and smoking cigarettes and watching life go by. I really loved that I got to spend some quality family time with My Family for Christmas. Although I am now with my family from the Group Home.